Stress Stress Stress
Ugh I am so stressed. I can't even get my life back together let alone plan things like mother's day. I mean, I can't even bathe and feed myself regularly. At least I still put on make-up and stuff... I need to sleep more too. And be home and just relax. I have barely read or watched anything in like two years... I can barely remember my entire life. And I was definitely depressed for like the past three years, and probably even before that- it just got really bad the past two years.
I like... forgot about my brother's very existence for the past few weeks as I've been somewhat trying to think of what to do for mother's day. Until just right now. I'm such a horrid person. But how can I plan anything if I never even see or talk to my family? I don't know. I think my sister said she was busy sunday. I should text her. I mean, I know it's really not that big of a thing, but even trying to think and plan things just gets me so stressed!
I am just thanking the Lord that Helana texted me about hotels for AX and she ended up doing it. Because it wasn't looking like anyone was going to do it, and I was going to have to, despite being so busy and stressed. (And I had already spent hours looking and comparing rooms and prices and distance meticulously till I came up with the exact one that I wanted. And I typed out a really long detailed message about how much it would cost for everyone and links to the google map to show how close it was and everything, and no one got back to me, so we didn't end up reserving it and then it filled up.)
Ugh I just want my family, you know? And we can finally be a family once my dad is out of the picture... I need my license. /sighs I'll go to the DMV next week. I'll do it. And apply for jobs.
Grawr. I need to get ready for work.
I like... forgot about my brother's very existence for the past few weeks as I've been somewhat trying to think of what to do for mother's day. Until just right now. I'm such a horrid person. But how can I plan anything if I never even see or talk to my family? I don't know. I think my sister said she was busy sunday. I should text her. I mean, I know it's really not that big of a thing, but even trying to think and plan things just gets me so stressed!
I am just thanking the Lord that Helana texted me about hotels for AX and she ended up doing it. Because it wasn't looking like anyone was going to do it, and I was going to have to, despite being so busy and stressed. (And I had already spent hours looking and comparing rooms and prices and distance meticulously till I came up with the exact one that I wanted. And I typed out a really long detailed message about how much it would cost for everyone and links to the google map to show how close it was and everything, and no one got back to me, so we didn't end up reserving it and then it filled up.)
Ugh I just want my family, you know? And we can finally be a family once my dad is out of the picture... I need my license. /sighs I'll go to the DMV next week. I'll do it. And apply for jobs.
Grawr. I need to get ready for work.