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Ugh. talking about all this crap takes so much energy.
Anyways, so basically on wednesday night my dad- after pushing me around trying to get me to leave- picked me up and fireman carried me outside in my socks and pajamas. it was 3am and 40 degrees out. All because I was asking him to give me a reason why I couldn't be on the computer after 2. I don't have school, and I work late. What the f*ck right? Anyways, he's just a control-freak sadist, anyways. I couldn't see his face, but I can just imagine the look on his face as he was carrying me over his shoulder down the stairs and outside. lsak;dfhas;dlj *rage*
Like, is he a retard? He's my father- he's supposed to care about me, not put me outside with no shoes and no money and no phone in the middle of the night and get me raped or something... Ugh it makes me so mad! And you know what he said when I asked him what the heck I was supposed to do with no phone? He said "figure it out." And when I was like "do you know how cold it is?" he said "you won't freeze" and then "wait outside and i'll bring you a sleeping bag and you can sleep on the porch. FUCK YOU, ASSHOLE! LIKE I'M ACTUALLY GOING TO FUCKING WAIT FOR YOU TO BRING ME A SLEEPING BAG.
I just kind of ended up walking around till 6 and I came back and the door was unlocked so I went in and went to sleep. Did you know that Rite Aid after a certain time doesn't allow people in unless you have an ID and are over 18? 'Cause apparently they do.
So whatever then friday after work my friends and I went to my house and we were watching a movie, and in the middle of it, he's all "I need to talk to Kara" so I go out there, and he's just standing there waiting for me to apologize. I was like "I'M SO NOT APOLOGIZING. YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS ANYTHING TO APOLOGIZE FOR" and he just kept being all "oh you need to work on your attitude, blah blah blah" and I'm like "I was just asking you a question!" So he ends up kicking us out in the middle of the movie "Sorry guys, you're gonna have to leave" in that fucking voice of his and with that face that make me want to rip my ears off and claw my eyes out it makes me so mad. And so I start grabbing my stuff and I'm like "whatever I'm not going to bow down and apologize when I didn't do anything and you put me out there in the middle of the night to be raped" and he's like "do you really want to be displaying this?" with his high-and-mighty face, and I'm like "why not, douchebag?" (that was the first time I've ever dared to call him anything besides a meanie because he fuckin' takes offence to everything anyways. ugh it pisses me off that I'm fucking programmed to not say things just because he gets fucking mad about fucking nothing- even if you aren't even saying anything close to insulting or accusatory, he usually even takes jokes as insults and gets fucking pissed at you). So he told me "find somewhere else to stay tonight" and I'm like "obviously."
So we went to Denny's and then I slept over at Becca's.
I don't even care dude. I'm going to freaking move in with Kacey's family- I don't care if I have to pay rent- and I'll start paying my own stupid phone bill so he can't take it, and I'm gonna get my license and get another job and get a car. Kacey just got a new computer, too, so I can use her old one. And her house is closer to where anything is. (I currently live in what I like to call the edge of the universe.) They like just had her older brother's friend move out, so they now have a room free. This also gives me a way to try to drag Kacey out of the house more often, too... It works out perfectly. I just need to find out all the details, like if they want me to pay rent (probably) and how much and stuff. I'm so over this shit. It's not worth it anymore. Half my stuff's in boxes anyways since we thought we were moving like 9 months ago and it all got put in storage...
Anyways, so basically on wednesday night my dad- after pushing me around trying to get me to leave- picked me up and fireman carried me outside in my socks and pajamas. it was 3am and 40 degrees out. All because I was asking him to give me a reason why I couldn't be on the computer after 2. I don't have school, and I work late. What the f*ck right? Anyways, he's just a control-freak sadist, anyways. I couldn't see his face, but I can just imagine the look on his face as he was carrying me over his shoulder down the stairs and outside. lsak;dfhas;dlj *rage*
Like, is he a retard? He's my father- he's supposed to care about me, not put me outside with no shoes and no money and no phone in the middle of the night and get me raped or something... Ugh it makes me so mad! And you know what he said when I asked him what the heck I was supposed to do with no phone? He said "figure it out." And when I was like "do you know how cold it is?" he said "you won't freeze" and then "wait outside and i'll bring you a sleeping bag and you can sleep on the porch. FUCK YOU, ASSHOLE! LIKE I'M ACTUALLY GOING TO FUCKING WAIT FOR YOU TO BRING ME A SLEEPING BAG.
I just kind of ended up walking around till 6 and I came back and the door was unlocked so I went in and went to sleep. Did you know that Rite Aid after a certain time doesn't allow people in unless you have an ID and are over 18? 'Cause apparently they do.
So whatever then friday after work my friends and I went to my house and we were watching a movie, and in the middle of it, he's all "I need to talk to Kara" so I go out there, and he's just standing there waiting for me to apologize. I was like "I'M SO NOT APOLOGIZING. YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS ANYTHING TO APOLOGIZE FOR" and he just kept being all "oh you need to work on your attitude, blah blah blah" and I'm like "I was just asking you a question!" So he ends up kicking us out in the middle of the movie "Sorry guys, you're gonna have to leave" in that fucking voice of his and with that face that make me want to rip my ears off and claw my eyes out it makes me so mad. And so I start grabbing my stuff and I'm like "whatever I'm not going to bow down and apologize when I didn't do anything and you put me out there in the middle of the night to be raped" and he's like "do you really want to be displaying this?" with his high-and-mighty face, and I'm like "why not, douchebag?" (that was the first time I've ever dared to call him anything besides a meanie because he fuckin' takes offence to everything anyways. ugh it pisses me off that I'm fucking programmed to not say things just because he gets fucking mad about fucking nothing- even if you aren't even saying anything close to insulting or accusatory, he usually even takes jokes as insults and gets fucking pissed at you). So he told me "find somewhere else to stay tonight" and I'm like "obviously."
So we went to Denny's and then I slept over at Becca's.
I don't even care dude. I'm going to freaking move in with Kacey's family- I don't care if I have to pay rent- and I'll start paying my own stupid phone bill so he can't take it, and I'm gonna get my license and get another job and get a car. Kacey just got a new computer, too, so I can use her old one. And her house is closer to where anything is. (I currently live in what I like to call the edge of the universe.) They like just had her older brother's friend move out, so they now have a room free. This also gives me a way to try to drag Kacey out of the house more often, too... It works out perfectly. I just need to find out all the details, like if they want me to pay rent (probably) and how much and stuff. I'm so over this shit. It's not worth it anymore. Half my stuff's in boxes anyways since we thought we were moving like 9 months ago and it all got put in storage...
