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[gelmar]

everyone bitches at me for being negative and being a dick. then turn around and do the same fucking thing. you bitch about people being here yet you are the reason any of this fucking started. i trusted you because you were the only friend i had, now i have none and you make everything look as if it's other people's fault and that you have the worst of it all. if you look at it from someone else's point of view you'd see that you're the cause of a lot of it. this isnt just one person im talking about, though everyone will think im directing soully towards them and then take precious time out of their stupid little lives to bitch at me because they're so self centered. you get on my ass for how i act and what i do. such as the drugs i do, saying "oh how can you do THAT drug, it's SOO BAD for you, you're a horrible person and you'll never become anything because of how you treat yourself." then i look at it, im doing better than you, honestly i know i have more positive things going on in my life, but when you're not happy it doesnt matter. especially when these same people are over at my appartment when i get home from work, doing the same drug they bitch at me for, and the whole group of them is vomitting all over the place. if there's problems in your life do something about it. you're old enough to make decisions for yourself. why the fuck do you think im throwing out one of my roommates? well because first the other roommate wouldnt take the innitiative, and second it's solving a lot of my problems. one of my other problems is that i have to deal with everyone else's problems because they just run and hide when something goes wrong. oh someone's pissed off im gonna go for a drive and when i get back it'll be all better. oh i fucked up so when i get back from this walk everyone will have forgotten about it. oh im a selfish prick so im gonna get mad at everyone else, make sure they have a horrible day and eventually everyone will be just fucking peachy. at least im attempting to fix the problems in my life, if you'd attempt to fix yours maybe then i'd give you a hand. but seeing as everyone expects everything to be done by someone else nothing's ever going to get done.

k im done venting. for now.