the maddening merry go round that is life
Its kinds funny i suppose how things somehow turn the way they are, i think I've made a horrible mistake coming back to this place called Singapore. My interest in art is but fading quickly, the very hope of doing anything with it is vanishing slowly into the air and yet here i am once more standing at the very peak of oblivion doing a crummy project with a crummy theme,in a crummy country that seriously seems more to care for its own freaking wealth then its people. I hate this place.
Regardless stress seems to be such a harsh word to say so, I am not stressed I am just so angry, so sad and right now kinda alone.
Sighs...its irritating to clean up the messes of someone else, its already bad enough on its own i have my own problems but yet, somehow i am the blame of problems for others, I find it sad that this room is the only place i can go to and feel safe, but now even that safeness is a thing of the past.This country will only bring me more misery, its people are fools.
I cannot sleep anymore, the worries of work come and haunt me at night. I wish i didnt have to force myself to do my work but there is no choice...they have trapped me here. I am a prisoner of this place. So lost...losing sanity day after day...
At least i hope there is a better tomorrow outside of this place... perhaps. the question that remains will i be there for tomorrow...Im so tired...so alone..
God i hate it when i have emo moments but this country is a dictatorship hidden behind a democracy...and i really feel like im just dieing here, it so depressing.
Regardless stress seems to be such a harsh word to say so, I am not stressed I am just so angry, so sad and right now kinda alone.
Sighs...its irritating to clean up the messes of someone else, its already bad enough on its own i have my own problems but yet, somehow i am the blame of problems for others, I find it sad that this room is the only place i can go to and feel safe, but now even that safeness is a thing of the past.This country will only bring me more misery, its people are fools.
I cannot sleep anymore, the worries of work come and haunt me at night. I wish i didnt have to force myself to do my work but there is no choice...they have trapped me here. I am a prisoner of this place. So lost...losing sanity day after day...
At least i hope there is a better tomorrow outside of this place... perhaps. the question that remains will i be there for tomorrow...Im so tired...so alone..
God i hate it when i have emo moments but this country is a dictatorship hidden behind a democracy...and i really feel like im just dieing here, it so depressing.