Disappointments.
It's so weird than I'm happier during our fist try in our UAI report than in our 2nd try.
(background - we were given another chance to report and redeem ourselves from a very very chaotic presentation since there are major revisions that must be applied. And so we need to do the whole thing all over again but with a higher expectation already for our part).
Maybe this high expectation led me to have a higher expectation from myself. And sadly I'm not really satisfied with the result. Although content wise, it was much much better than the first (it must be! i sweated over it for 2 1/2 days, no sleep!), instead of making me relieved and proud that my efforts were not wasted, I feel the opposite. Since I finished doing the report 10 minutes before our scheduled presentation, there were no practice, no prepared spills, no carefully constructed words, and just pure on the spot analyzing, thinking, and reporting. Thus, resulting to a lot of lags and gaps in the presentation. (Shameful, really!)
I really feel that it could have been better if only I was able to express myself and my thoughts better. Too bad, I'm really slow when it comes to impromptus.
Maybe all the stress for the past two days plus the tension during the report also piled up that all my energy was drained leaving me very depressed and exhausted. So I guess this is not a *good job!* day after all.
Sad. ='(
(background - we were given another chance to report and redeem ourselves from a very very chaotic presentation since there are major revisions that must be applied. And so we need to do the whole thing all over again but with a higher expectation already for our part).
Maybe this high expectation led me to have a higher expectation from myself. And sadly I'm not really satisfied with the result. Although content wise, it was much much better than the first (it must be! i sweated over it for 2 1/2 days, no sleep!), instead of making me relieved and proud that my efforts were not wasted, I feel the opposite. Since I finished doing the report 10 minutes before our scheduled presentation, there were no practice, no prepared spills, no carefully constructed words, and just pure on the spot analyzing, thinking, and reporting. Thus, resulting to a lot of lags and gaps in the presentation. (Shameful, really!)
I really feel that it could have been better if only I was able to express myself and my thoughts better. Too bad, I'm really slow when it comes to impromptus.
Maybe all the stress for the past two days plus the tension during the report also piled up that all my energy was drained leaving me very depressed and exhausted. So I guess this is not a *good job!* day after all.
Sad. ='(