Patience is thin right now!!! be ware!!!
So airicka spent this weekend with her mother and came home ill.....her ear had been hurting her all weekend long.....airicka is prone to ear infections and the last time she had one her ear drum bust so I had some concern about it........When she came home from school on monday still complaining I had her sit with me in my dark room and watch cartoons to keep her still as it hurts her worse when she jumps around.....I tried to get cj to leave her be and let us spend some time together in my room......she refused to respect my privacy and let me spend time with airicka even to the point that when airicka commented "yay leave us alone" she climbed over me to tickle her and shake her.......i got her out of the room and dealt with liz and torri and began dinner......she told me to watch my pasta and went back into my bedroom to "play" with airicka....she was tickling her and jostling her around to the point where airicka was calling for me to come help her which i could hear from the kitchen.......i got dinner onto plates and sat airicka down to eat....cj sat at the table with her harrassing her on her table manners.....airicka's ear was hurting so bad she was holding it all through out dinner to the point where she could not take her hand away to cut her meat......I put them in the car and took cj to the store and talked to henry about taking airicka to the er....dropped cj at school and told her to call henry for a ride cause we were going to the er..........we spent two hours in the er waiting to be seen with bleeding people in the lobby to be seen and looked at for five minutes fill out paperwork and be told it would cost us 50 bucks due than and not able to bill to the grandmother........another ten dollar for meds.....and i took her home gave her meds and put her to bed......i spoke to henry and put my pjs on and laid down as my head was throbbing from sinus pressure........she refused to wait for henry at school till he got off work at eleven (her class was out at ten) and got a ride home from someone....came to my door all angry cause i didnt call her or pick her up.........i was pissed........she was more upset that we didnt give her a ride than she was concerned about airicka's illness......i was soo angry last night that i actually went into the kitchen looking for alchohol something I have not done in almost 15 yrs...........i have raised airicka and been in airickas life since sarah was pregnant with her and she is the closest thing to my own daughter having come out of my own body as I will ever get........I don't think i am in the wrong for being upset about this at all............i realize that some of my anger stems from my own abuse from my stepfather who used to tease in the name of fun to the point of abuse........but shaking a child with an ear infection could seriously cause problems like another busted ear drum........furious does not begin to discribe me right now