New Years Eve
So here it is again, time for a new year to begin. I find it very hard to get excited about New Year Eve and it's celebrations. I mean, I can see why people celebrate it, and understand that it's a great chance to have fun with friends, but I just can't help shake the feeling of 'meh' towards it.
Out of all the noted holidays that I celebrate in some way, it's right at the bottom of the list, after the likes of Christmas, Easter, Valentines and Matt Damon's birthday.
Perhaps I am just too cynical, but in my experience you have to get pretty drunk to enjoy the night on a major level. Looking at what I did last year, I just stood in a crowd of people, in long lines for expensive drinks, and just drank, because it was too loud to have a conversation of any sort, and just cheered when the clock struck 12, then went home. Being drunk hid the fact that it was somewhat pointless.
Although, there may be some larger force at play here, to do with being around people, to be with your 'kind' in a sort of animalistic sense, a collective group of strangers of the same species that celebrates together, or some wank like that.
Looking back, all my New Years have been relatively low key with the except of last year. Before that I mainly just spent the night with a handful of friends or family. I think my favourite was 04/05 when three of us stayed at a place in Falls Creek and sat on a balcony drinking vodka cruisers, while a group of drunkenish (possibly English tourists?) people in their 50s sang Gilbert & Sullivan songs.
Tonight I had nothing planned until a friend asked me if I wanted to have dinner with her and a group of her work clients or something, which is a really nice gesture. So once dinners over I guess I'll probably just go wherever they do. I will try and avoid the Octagon as much as possible though. I know I'm usually never in the mood for large groups of people and noise, but tonight I am feeling even less in the mood.
I think it's possible that my problem may be a lack of assertiveness and/or imagination. I think New Years would be quite different if I had a fair idea of what's fun so I could plan something and invite sufficient amounts of people to enjoy it with me, rather than just leaving my night up to the burden of others. Maybe that can be my New Year's resolution, to figure out what to do next New Years.
As for the year itself, I think it's probably been my best year of all, if you had to rate them in some way.
Positives: Made new friends, gained a social life, got over some minor anxiety issues, got into a good routine with Polytech and such and generally changed my outlook on a lot of things. Also making the step to enrol for University too is probably the big one.
Negatives: My mental health feels as if it is continually deteriorating. I'd like to get a hold of that next year. Resolution #2 I guess.
Anyway, I must go or I'll be late for dinner. I hope you all have a fun New Years celebration, and a great 2009!
Out of all the noted holidays that I celebrate in some way, it's right at the bottom of the list, after the likes of Christmas, Easter, Valentines and Matt Damon's birthday.
Perhaps I am just too cynical, but in my experience you have to get pretty drunk to enjoy the night on a major level. Looking at what I did last year, I just stood in a crowd of people, in long lines for expensive drinks, and just drank, because it was too loud to have a conversation of any sort, and just cheered when the clock struck 12, then went home. Being drunk hid the fact that it was somewhat pointless.
Although, there may be some larger force at play here, to do with being around people, to be with your 'kind' in a sort of animalistic sense, a collective group of strangers of the same species that celebrates together, or some wank like that.
Looking back, all my New Years have been relatively low key with the except of last year. Before that I mainly just spent the night with a handful of friends or family. I think my favourite was 04/05 when three of us stayed at a place in Falls Creek and sat on a balcony drinking vodka cruisers, while a group of drunkenish (possibly English tourists?) people in their 50s sang Gilbert & Sullivan songs.
Tonight I had nothing planned until a friend asked me if I wanted to have dinner with her and a group of her work clients or something, which is a really nice gesture. So once dinners over I guess I'll probably just go wherever they do. I will try and avoid the Octagon as much as possible though. I know I'm usually never in the mood for large groups of people and noise, but tonight I am feeling even less in the mood.
I think it's possible that my problem may be a lack of assertiveness and/or imagination. I think New Years would be quite different if I had a fair idea of what's fun so I could plan something and invite sufficient amounts of people to enjoy it with me, rather than just leaving my night up to the burden of others. Maybe that can be my New Year's resolution, to figure out what to do next New Years.
As for the year itself, I think it's probably been my best year of all, if you had to rate them in some way.
Positives: Made new friends, gained a social life, got over some minor anxiety issues, got into a good routine with Polytech and such and generally changed my outlook on a lot of things. Also making the step to enrol for University too is probably the big one.
Negatives: My mental health feels as if it is continually deteriorating. I'd like to get a hold of that next year. Resolution #2 I guess.
Anyway, I must go or I'll be late for dinner. I hope you all have a fun New Years celebration, and a great 2009!