You make me feel like I am whole again...
I feel so lost. I can't bear to think about it right now but the end is near and I'm going to have to say goodbye sooner than I'd like to. I'm gonna be a wreck,miserable,lost,alone,sad. He's my everything. My backbone my life safer. The one who I can call at 3 AM bawling and I know he will find the words to make everything alright. The one who always listens and never judges. A true friend an honest guy the one who I love with all my heart. The best friend I've ever had. He's probably the person who knows everything about me. I've never had a friend who's cared about me as much as he does. And, without him I will crumble. I will become weak again. I won't be able to call him a 3 AM and cry my eyes out. He won't be there to stop by when he knows something's wrong. I won't get to laugh with him. I won't get to cry with him. I just won't get to be with him. I love this guy more than anything in the world. Without him I feel so lost and alone. He truly is the most important person in my life. He's changed me in so many ways and I don't know what I would do without him. He is so much to me.
But next year he will be gone. He will be 9 hours away. He says it like it's just around the block. I hate the fact that he'll be so far away. I hate that he's leaving me. I also feel selfish because in a way I hate how he's moving on to bigger and better things. I feel like he's just leaving me behind. I just wish he would stay closer to home. He's one of the only people I have and I just don't want to be without him. I've never been so close to a guy in my life. I fear I will lose that when he goes off to college. He'll make friends his age and change. He'll party like crazy and won't call me or visit me when he's home for summer or the holidays. I know him and deep down inside I know he's not that kind of person but I always doubt myself.
DJ has been a huge part of my life especially in this past year. I've never felt so loved of cared about in my whole entire life. I've never felt so trusted or valued before. DJ without you I dont even want to think about what could've happened to me. You are so much to me and I can honestly say I love you more than anything in this world. Please don't change and don't leave me behind.
But next year he will be gone. He will be 9 hours away. He says it like it's just around the block. I hate the fact that he'll be so far away. I hate that he's leaving me. I also feel selfish because in a way I hate how he's moving on to bigger and better things. I feel like he's just leaving me behind. I just wish he would stay closer to home. He's one of the only people I have and I just don't want to be without him. I've never been so close to a guy in my life. I fear I will lose that when he goes off to college. He'll make friends his age and change. He'll party like crazy and won't call me or visit me when he's home for summer or the holidays. I know him and deep down inside I know he's not that kind of person but I always doubt myself.
DJ has been a huge part of my life especially in this past year. I've never felt so loved of cared about in my whole entire life. I've never felt so trusted or valued before. DJ without you I dont even want to think about what could've happened to me. You are so much to me and I can honestly say I love you more than anything in this world. Please don't change and don't leave me behind.