i miss her so much!

[geenuhhh]

so, i sorta just got home at kaylas house and she just about died. like seriously. i was so scared. it made me think about what would have happened if she did and i couldnt take it. i miss nikky so much. im listening to dreaming of you right now and i cant help but cry. its true, you never know what you have until its gone and it sucks. like, for real. you never thin k you could have that much emotion for just one person. and that really says alot since you , in a whole life time meet hundreds of thousands of people all at risk of loosing them. but you cant avoid it. you can only hope and pray it doesnt happen.

ugh. so anyways, mike is coming home today.. im glad. i need to talk to him. i want him to cheer me up. i need it desperately.