To the ends of the earth with a list and a smile.
This year, as with every year, I have a lot to be thankful for.
(I can't even tell you, Internet, how much has happened in the past few months! I'm going to try eventually, and I'm going to fail, becuase no amount of space or metaphors or hand-crafted strings of words and phrases and commas will ever be adequate. It will never satisfy the hole in my heart. One of these days I'll sit down and get it all out. The mist and fog and hate and brutal love. The excitement and fallling and headrushes. And let's just say this: when the heart is involved, in the good and the bad, it all comes out in moron, for better or for worse...)
Usually, I turn into a sap. I map out long, flowery passages packed full of love and mushyness. It's my speciality, turning on the holiday mush.
And to some extent, I will always do that. I will always be eternally grateful for the people an things and events in my life. I will always be in awe of the perfectness and completeness that is brought on by those so near and dear to my heart. I will always have something cutesy and corney to say, and I will never apologize for this particular trait.
I have a lot to be Thankful for. I have a wonderful and supportive family (however batshit crazy they may be), and loving friends that I can never get enough of. Even in this turbulent time of haze and silence, I know that there is a lot of love there, even if it's hard to see at this particular moment. I have lots of exciting and fabulous new people in my life (a boy included!) and I have been very fortunate. More fortuante than most, in every sense of the word.
So I'll take this opportunity to say all of this, in a simplified word, used to describe the complex nature of the human condition: Thank You. I love all of you very much, and I thank you for that. For the memories and the continuing good times. For the beauty and reverence, for the warm hugs and chilly nights, and most of all, for the opportunity to love all of you like I do. I'm thankful for you, my friends, my family, my chosen family, my roommates (with the haze!), the boy, the sisters, both real and imagined... You are the good fortune.
And I thank you for that.
(I can't even tell you, Internet, how much has happened in the past few months! I'm going to try eventually, and I'm going to fail, becuase no amount of space or metaphors or hand-crafted strings of words and phrases and commas will ever be adequate. It will never satisfy the hole in my heart. One of these days I'll sit down and get it all out. The mist and fog and hate and brutal love. The excitement and fallling and headrushes. And let's just say this: when the heart is involved, in the good and the bad, it all comes out in moron, for better or for worse...)
Usually, I turn into a sap. I map out long, flowery passages packed full of love and mushyness. It's my speciality, turning on the holiday mush.
And to some extent, I will always do that. I will always be eternally grateful for the people an things and events in my life. I will always be in awe of the perfectness and completeness that is brought on by those so near and dear to my heart. I will always have something cutesy and corney to say, and I will never apologize for this particular trait.
I have a lot to be Thankful for. I have a wonderful and supportive family (however batshit crazy they may be), and loving friends that I can never get enough of. Even in this turbulent time of haze and silence, I know that there is a lot of love there, even if it's hard to see at this particular moment. I have lots of exciting and fabulous new people in my life (a boy included!) and I have been very fortunate. More fortuante than most, in every sense of the word.
So I'll take this opportunity to say all of this, in a simplified word, used to describe the complex nature of the human condition: Thank You. I love all of you very much, and I thank you for that. For the memories and the continuing good times. For the beauty and reverence, for the warm hugs and chilly nights, and most of all, for the opportunity to love all of you like I do. I'm thankful for you, my friends, my family, my chosen family, my roommates (with the haze!), the boy, the sisters, both real and imagined... You are the good fortune.
And I thank you for that.