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Ugh I have to find something that will make dexedrine come down easier. I don't know how many more times I can take this. I feel like I'm being stripped of my very soul almost. Just. *rubs face* This sucks so much.
Busy day tomorrow. Dr. B appointment at 10, then off to get a septum retainer so my grandparents don't kill me, probably Wal-Marting with Dad, and then Masq.
Going to go shove some Xanax down my throat. I was going to try and stay up to my usual bedtime through it but my senses are whacked out, my brain is fried, my body is jittery, and I'm tired. My entire sense of space and distance is warped right now. I have to have a downer or else I think I'm gonna explode. Hopefully it'll just flat knock me out too.
EDIT (11:36 PM):
Oh god we're out of Xanax. Mom said Dad should be able to pick some up from the pharmacy on his way back but god knows how long it'll be till he even starts coming home. I would take some Tylenol PM but I took my usual Ibuprofen/Tylenol Arthritis cocktail about 2 hours ago. I've got to get Dr. Bantly to prescribe me a sleep aide for when I'm on my dexedrine. Not just an anti-anxiety medicine- something that will knock me flat on my ass so that I can ride out the come down unconscious.
I sound like a goddamn junkie.
Whatever I'm.. I'm just going to go lay down and try to sleep or relax at least.
Busy day tomorrow. Dr. B appointment at 10, then off to get a septum retainer so my grandparents don't kill me, probably Wal-Marting with Dad, and then Masq.
Going to go shove some Xanax down my throat. I was going to try and stay up to my usual bedtime through it but my senses are whacked out, my brain is fried, my body is jittery, and I'm tired. My entire sense of space and distance is warped right now. I have to have a downer or else I think I'm gonna explode. Hopefully it'll just flat knock me out too.
EDIT (11:36 PM):
Oh god we're out of Xanax. Mom said Dad should be able to pick some up from the pharmacy on his way back but god knows how long it'll be till he even starts coming home. I would take some Tylenol PM but I took my usual Ibuprofen/Tylenol Arthritis cocktail about 2 hours ago. I've got to get Dr. Bantly to prescribe me a sleep aide for when I'm on my dexedrine. Not just an anti-anxiety medicine- something that will knock me flat on my ass so that I can ride out the come down unconscious.
I sound like a goddamn junkie.
Whatever I'm.. I'm just going to go lay down and try to sleep or relax at least.