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I hate everyone apart from a very few amount of people, and those who i do not hate, i care for uncontrolably, in a sense to much, these people make me stay here, i care for these people so much that even when im in so much pain im still willing to go on just for them, but i cant put up with it anymore.
I might move to melbourne for a while, dunno what i will do when i get there, i was gonna go tomorrow, but i cannot leave my dog. i dont think that even a few snorts of Zoloft will make me feel better.
I was feeling really crappy the smorning, and i cut, again, i knew i shouldnt have gone to school, but i needed to talk to someone, but no one was there, no one, im not seeing Doris anymore, and i cannot see Donna, I(m not) cant allowed to talk to my friends, and im just going in fucking sane, its terrible to feel like this, i just want to shoot myself in the fucking head and get it over and done with. So i went to school, asked Miss prescott if i could talk to someone, she said i couldnt because there was no one to talk to, i sighed and felt even more crappy then i did before, i only had two classes today but they were the worst classes of my life, i feel so upset and frustrated at myself, i need to cry, and sleep for a million years, i need to be saved from myself, im a horrible person.
I hate myself.
I might move to melbourne for a while, dunno what i will do when i get there, i was gonna go tomorrow, but i cannot leave my dog. i dont think that even a few snorts of Zoloft will make me feel better.
I was feeling really crappy the smorning, and i cut, again, i knew i shouldnt have gone to school, but i needed to talk to someone, but no one was there, no one, im not seeing Doris anymore, and i cannot see Donna, I(m not) cant allowed to talk to my friends, and im just going in fucking sane, its terrible to feel like this, i just want to shoot myself in the fucking head and get it over and done with. So i went to school, asked Miss prescott if i could talk to someone, she said i couldnt because there was no one to talk to, i sighed and felt even more crappy then i did before, i only had two classes today but they were the worst classes of my life, i feel so upset and frustrated at myself, i need to cry, and sleep for a million years, i need to be saved from myself, im a horrible person.
I hate myself.