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what's real? The fact we dont talk anymore, that's you've changed and it's like, i've been asleep the whole time i was with you, vice versa. where is the girl who hates going to the reservoir, the one who speaks about the randomest thing on and on and on and i just look at you like you're the most amazing thing God's ever created, not paying attention to a single word you say. It's like you've lost your mind, or cut the veins of which that connects to your heart.
everything feels numb, the people i thought i knew- did i really know, know them? this is mindfuckingly tiring to the extent im drained, i just want to sleep and never wake up. every morning on the bus, i wear the same confused and tired face and with an expression that screams ' I NEED TO STOP THINKING' , go to work, talk to my boss, talk to jo, do my work, meet my friends, go home, with the same confused and tired face and with an expression that screams ' I NEED TO STOP THINKING' face. what is this cycle, this thing im going through, like a motion, something so constant and never ending i feel so suffocated i'd rather die than go through this everyday.
am i in a rut this early in my life?
in my mind, they, whoever they are, are screaming, shouting, yearning. whilst my body, soul and everything else feels hollow. is this a sign? do i need to start reading the bible.