Like a Mirror
People who have seen the full 'Telephone' music video with Gaga and Beyonce will get where the title is from and what it means!!
So I had an awesome time at the movies with Sen, good effing film and 3D rules and we talked about some really awesome shit that I'm a little bit nervous about elaborating on at the present time...more to come. I'm kinda jittery right now but it might just be from all the coca-cola.
So anyway it was a really good time, obv, but she was feeling sick!!! So I hope she gets better; no more walking around in this crazy-ass weather! >(
But you know when you feel really awesome after having a good time and then it all comes crashing down with a few words from someone else? Long story short, I starrted feeling nostalgic. In a bad way. She just seemed cold and I wished the bad stuff never happened.
Then, Q started to talk to me and she said shes' been feeling really really down and really really cynical. It breaks my heart to hear about her feeling that low, because I think I really understand her feelings; I think that, a lot of the time, people feel things differently than one another, but her and I feel things the same. I also...I dunno, I feel protective of her, because she's younger, because I relate to her so well, etc. etc.
But she said something that hit a little too close to home, with all that considered. I've got her permission to put it in here to give you al an idea;
Ɛɲȼɦǻtȓeșș ('.') says:
*But in the morning I thought ~ I want love, I need love. more than a friend and only for me. I'm sick of sex, I just want kisses and hugs and to fall asleep in each others arms. To laugh and be one through life. but every other time I had been in love it was an illusion. So love has to be an illusion ~
*So in my mind I need to love but would never have it. Sok
An illusion...yeah... just earlier today I was thinking that "true love" like that doesn't exist; that's why Fiona's words in the new Shrek movie get to me; you know, the ones about not counting on love or on anybody else anymore.
Man this is depressing. She's right.
I sorta wish I could just pass out, but cause I slept a good portion of the afternoon, I don't feel like I"ll be sleeping for a while. Might go for another walk, maybe buy some cookies or something, and then if I still have all this energy...maybe I'll work on that fanfic I started.
And I think I'll take the pic that Sen drew me out of my bag; that'll remind me of the good times. [Thank you x////x ]
So I had an awesome time at the movies with Sen, good effing film and 3D rules and we talked about some really awesome shit that I'm a little bit nervous about elaborating on at the present time...more to come. I'm kinda jittery right now but it might just be from all the coca-cola.
So anyway it was a really good time, obv, but she was feeling sick!!! So I hope she gets better; no more walking around in this crazy-ass weather! >(
But you know when you feel really awesome after having a good time and then it all comes crashing down with a few words from someone else? Long story short, I starrted feeling nostalgic. In a bad way. She just seemed cold and I wished the bad stuff never happened.
Then, Q started to talk to me and she said shes' been feeling really really down and really really cynical. It breaks my heart to hear about her feeling that low, because I think I really understand her feelings; I think that, a lot of the time, people feel things differently than one another, but her and I feel things the same. I also...I dunno, I feel protective of her, because she's younger, because I relate to her so well, etc. etc.
But she said something that hit a little too close to home, with all that considered. I've got her permission to put it in here to give you al an idea;
Ɛɲȼɦǻtȓeșș ('.') says:
*But in the morning I thought ~ I want love, I need love. more than a friend and only for me. I'm sick of sex, I just want kisses and hugs and to fall asleep in each others arms. To laugh and be one through life. but every other time I had been in love it was an illusion. So love has to be an illusion ~
*So in my mind I need to love but would never have it. Sok
An illusion...yeah... just earlier today I was thinking that "true love" like that doesn't exist; that's why Fiona's words in the new Shrek movie get to me; you know, the ones about not counting on love or on anybody else anymore.
Man this is depressing. She's right.
I sorta wish I could just pass out, but cause I slept a good portion of the afternoon, I don't feel like I"ll be sleeping for a while. Might go for another walk, maybe buy some cookies or something, and then if I still have all this energy...maybe I'll work on that fanfic I started.
And I think I'll take the pic that Sen drew me out of my bag; that'll remind me of the good times. [Thank you x////x ]