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I hate the mixed feelings that come with going back and forth between school and home. I hate negative emotions in general. Wtf. When I'm at school I miss home/home friends, when I'm at home I miss school/school friends. I hate that my home and school lives are so separate...and I'm the worst friend ever when it comes to keeping in touch with people. I know absolutely nothing about my home friends school lives...and even though I'm in love with my home friends I feel like now that we're in college there's this huge 9 month empty space where I know nothing about them or their lives. Is this seriously how life is going to be now? I'm pretty sure I don't like it.
So I'm hoping this break will be fun. I'm excited to be home in my house because I absolutely detest the dorms... but it sucks being back to Karen's stupid restrictions. And back to the ridiculous amount of effort it takes just to make plans in this city. Anyhoo I'm trying to keep a positive outlook and tell myself that no matter what happens I'll have fun because I'm back with the loves of my life with no school shit to worry about. Okay.
My dog keeps eating ornaments off the tree. Not good.
Soooo it doesn't really feel like Christmas. And its bound to be a verrrry depressing Christmas considering its the first one without my grandma and aunt, my brother's girlfriend's mom just died unexpectedly so now she and her 9yearold brother will be staying with us and its so sad, and my sister and her boyfriend and my cousin and his wife can't make it home. Depressing.
I don't like growing up. Not at all.
I want it to snow.
So I'm hoping this break will be fun. I'm excited to be home in my house because I absolutely detest the dorms... but it sucks being back to Karen's stupid restrictions. And back to the ridiculous amount of effort it takes just to make plans in this city. Anyhoo I'm trying to keep a positive outlook and tell myself that no matter what happens I'll have fun because I'm back with the loves of my life with no school shit to worry about. Okay.
My dog keeps eating ornaments off the tree. Not good.
Soooo it doesn't really feel like Christmas. And its bound to be a verrrry depressing Christmas considering its the first one without my grandma and aunt, my brother's girlfriend's mom just died unexpectedly so now she and her 9yearold brother will be staying with us and its so sad, and my sister and her boyfriend and my cousin and his wife can't make it home. Depressing.
I don't like growing up. Not at all.
I want it to snow.