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How is it that after only 9 months away from school everyone stopped giving a crap about everyone else. What happened to WANTING to hang out with FRIENDS. I'm sorry, but I didn't realize it was an inconvenience for people to want to actually hang out with a group of people and just spend some time relaxing and having fun. We've been home 3 months and I can remember like 2, maybe 3 times that I actually saw people and genuinely enjoyed myself. Maybe I'm selfish...maybe livejournal isn't the place to vent but I am seriously pissed off. I realize that its no one elsess concern that my grandmother died and I missed out on actually doing stuff for a week when stuff was actually happening. And I realize its really nobody elses concern that I'm having surgery and am not going to be able to go out for a couple weeks...but I would think that some people I consider friends would actually find it in themselves to spend a little time with me while I can actually go out. But no, I should've known everyone would be too busy not returning phone calls, doing their own thing and/or wallowing in pointless self-pity instead of going out and having some good old fashioned fun. I guess I over-estimated how much I mean to people. Seriously over-estimated. What a wake-up call to realize that no one cares even a fraction of the amount that they claim they do. I just think its funny that the only time you act like you care is when something sad happens. It might be nice to show you care on a regular day, have some pointless fun...when it actually MEANS something.
If it weren't for a select few people that I lovvvvvvvvvve and know how to actually be true friends I don't know what I'd do.
If it weren't for a select few people that I lovvvvvvvvvve and know how to actually be true friends I don't know what I'd do.