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The other night-I don't know what possessed me to do so, but I watched the Nicholas Berg video.
It's disrespectful that it's even so widely distributed, I cannot imagine how his family feels. I really don't know why in that one second I hit 'play' I just discarded that and became another stupid voyeur.
I stopped it just before the end because I thought I was either going to cry or throw up. It was awful, obviously. They made it as awful as possible.
It made me angry and not in a patriotic way, but just a human way. It made me annoyed that I am sitting in a house, with two cats, and 10 pairs of sneakers, CDs and user manuals scattered around, wishing I didn't have to work in the morning, wondering if this aloe vera lotion is going to stop me from peeling.
It made my chest hurt, I couldn't sleep all night.
I felt like I should never forget it, like I should feel ashamed. Im not sure exactly why that is either.
It's scary, the ferocity of men.
Using people as "collateral", some kind of screwed up intellectual property. Poker chips.
It's disrespectful that it's even so widely distributed, I cannot imagine how his family feels. I really don't know why in that one second I hit 'play' I just discarded that and became another stupid voyeur.
I stopped it just before the end because I thought I was either going to cry or throw up. It was awful, obviously. They made it as awful as possible.
It made me angry and not in a patriotic way, but just a human way. It made me annoyed that I am sitting in a house, with two cats, and 10 pairs of sneakers, CDs and user manuals scattered around, wishing I didn't have to work in the morning, wondering if this aloe vera lotion is going to stop me from peeling.
It made my chest hurt, I couldn't sleep all night.
I felt like I should never forget it, like I should feel ashamed. Im not sure exactly why that is either.
It's scary, the ferocity of men.
Using people as "collateral", some kind of screwed up intellectual property. Poker chips.