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im kind of going through this weird transitional stage.. i take everything extremely personal and im pretty frickin lonely. you're thinking, well who isn't lonely? but geez it's just so hard to understand... i even try to make friends and it never seems to work. even if i am invited to go somewhere i feel like a fricking tag along. as if i am only there because everyone feels sorry for me. this is exactly what i don't want.. i want to go places with people who genuinely like me, not people who feel sorry for me. my self-esteem is shot and im not to sure how to fix this.. i just wish someone actually cared. im also very pathetic because even if someone cares.. and i dont want them too i will totally try to erase myself from their life. why is it that i am picky about who i want to care, when all i really want is someone to care? i'd just like a call from people i want to be part of my life every once in a while just to see how i was doing... and my mom doesn't count.