I'm just a fat kid looking to fall in love.

Jul 27, 2005 02:15

Ok, I am going to let y'all in on some stuff I have been thinking about a lot for the last few days.

Love:

Love is a certainty.

Scratch that.

Love has three stages. On, Dim, And off. If you are off, you arent in love. To be dim is to care so greatly for a person, that you would say you love them. And on is to be in love. To be in love is to be absolutely enamored with someone. So much that nothing else matters. That the only thing that could break the bond you have is to be literally torn from them mind body and soul. In love is a certainty. Being in love is unwavering No other person could bring you down from the high that being in love gives you.

But In Love has a dirty cousin. Infatuation. Infatuation creeps in by preying on a persons love for traits. He then disguises himself as love, and will perpetrate until its exposed by its only weakness. Doubt. Doubt is a seed placed by a doubter.Doubt makes you waver. Doubt makes you fall. Doubt makes you hurt. But doubt makes you realize that In Love isnt there. It was Infatuation all along. But infatuation still cares. Infatuation loves, but he doesnt "in love"

The worst pain I have ever felt in my life was infatuation. I could have rode infatuation forever wasting my life and hurting myself. But the seed was planted. The doubter, my father. He straight pointed infatuation out to me. And I denied it. But he was right, and he kept showing me and I kept denying it. But the seed was planted, and it grew and I fell, and I realized. I never loved this girl.

I almost fell in love once. Indescribable. When I was with her, all I could hear was her. Everything about her drew me to her. And the thought of her never left my head. But, I dont want to go into where that ends.

There is no abuse in love. Some of you may prove me wrong on the verbal side of this coin but physical is a no, no. Never raise a hand in anger at someone you love. You never ask someone you love to give something up for you. Besides, forbidding things only makes them more desirable. To be in love with someone is to be in love with every aspect of them. Physical aspect, mental aspect, their flaws, mistakes, and all the good things they bring to the table.

Loyalty. To be in love is to be loyal. Infidelity cant be tolerated. If one person has trouble being, felling, or thinking that they can be loyal this person needs to reevaluate where their love switch is at. Because it cant be on all the way.

You cant convince yourself you are in love. It just is, and you cant explain it.

In Love is 100%. No less.

These are just my thoughts on the subject. But I am also a hopless romantic.

I'm not trying to change any minds,
just trying to open them.

*All information compiled from living though the numerous failed relationsihps of both my mother and father.

P.S.
I'm not trying to be a jerkwad or anything.
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