* i WiSH *
i really just wish things could go back to normal .. i want my best friend back .. i want all my friends back .. everyhtings going wrong .. i dont know what it is .. i think thats just what love does to you .. you cant help your feelings i know .. so it makes you do strange things .. like i want to be with my friends but then adam asks me to do something and i do stuff with him .. i dont know how to change everything .. i miss kori so much and we fight too much .. i hope camp could change it back to normal .. so i do want to go back .. me and kori // best friends forever .. anyone remember that ?? .. i hope it lasts i cant take it .. i went soo long without crying but the other day i just broke down .. i was home all day so no one was in my business which might have been a good thing .. but like i have everything bottles up inside, with no one to talk to .. because i cant trust many people .. and the people i can trust dont have time for me .. but i mean like i am always so overwhelmed with everyone elses problems that i cant handle my own anymore and i dont know what to do .. i love helping people out it makes me happy .. but sometimes i think people take advantage of it .. they kno im gonna be nice so they keep saying stupid shit to whine about .. and i think thats why i whine so much .. because i just need to get it out and i cant so i make up excuses for my crying .. i get it now .. its starting to make sense .. but i dont know what to do with myself .. sometimes i wish i can just go somewhere where no one ever knew i existed and start over all new .. and id do pretty good because i knew everyhitng NOT to do, so id do everyhitng right .. but i know thats not gonna happen andi can stop dreaming .. haha im gonna go now .. going wiht my mom .. hopefully meeting up wiht kori and maybe she an come wiht us to wash my moms car .. hehe !!
talk to you tomorrow probably <3
.. <3 anG *
i lo0ve aDam <3
talk to you tomorrow probably <3
.. <3 anG *
i lo0ve aDam <3