I've decided i need a change from like everything......
So yea as last week went by and this week is like 1/4 of the way through ive been doing a lot of thinking and that i need to set my prioties for myself and not just go with the flow of things nemore......
The past weekend and this weekend that just ended have me thinking more and more that i really wanna go away to college just to get the experience there and so that way i wouldnt have to deal with my parents and them getting involved with what goes on in my life type thing......also its made me realize things about relationships and how a lot of things change throughout them or how they just stay the same which is sucky......in my case at least....its not like i dont enjoy hanging out with shane all the time and stuff like that its just we pretty much do the same thing every day and like i didnt really realize how it was like that until i did go away these past two weekends and got to experience something different and hangout with different people other then the same group all the time...dont get me wrong the boys crack me up all the time its just that i wish me and shane could have like time to ourselves or just actually go out and do stuff or just have him at least one time just surprise me out of the blew with something whether it be a card or just something little like that......its just the little things out of a relationship that we are kind of missing and like i said before i never really thought about it till this past week went by and stuff......now i know some people that read this talk to shane and stuff which is ok but i just kind wanna keep this to myself for right now and just try to figure out what to do cuz at this point i really dont know what to do and i just need someone to talk to about it or just someones advice on what i should do........
So if anyone that reads this that has my cell number and has some advice or anything at all on what i should do.....i would appreciate the call cuz im just not myself lately......
The past weekend and this weekend that just ended have me thinking more and more that i really wanna go away to college just to get the experience there and so that way i wouldnt have to deal with my parents and them getting involved with what goes on in my life type thing......also its made me realize things about relationships and how a lot of things change throughout them or how they just stay the same which is sucky......in my case at least....its not like i dont enjoy hanging out with shane all the time and stuff like that its just we pretty much do the same thing every day and like i didnt really realize how it was like that until i did go away these past two weekends and got to experience something different and hangout with different people other then the same group all the time...dont get me wrong the boys crack me up all the time its just that i wish me and shane could have like time to ourselves or just actually go out and do stuff or just have him at least one time just surprise me out of the blew with something whether it be a card or just something little like that......its just the little things out of a relationship that we are kind of missing and like i said before i never really thought about it till this past week went by and stuff......now i know some people that read this talk to shane and stuff which is ok but i just kind wanna keep this to myself for right now and just try to figure out what to do cuz at this point i really dont know what to do and i just need someone to talk to about it or just someones advice on what i should do........
So if anyone that reads this that has my cell number and has some advice or anything at all on what i should do.....i would appreciate the call cuz im just not myself lately......