Lovers Turn Into Monsters
I haven't updated my journal in a very long while. I was just thinking to myself, theres not very many people out there, that could love me for me inside, i mean alot of people are drawn to me because they think I'm hot, but then they hangout with me, and it only takes me like 2 hangouts, then i'm not shy, and then thats when they're like what the fuck, this bitch needs riddalin.. Anyways, Just a thought.
Mike and I haven't been good at all. I haven't seen him for 3 weeks, and whenever we talk, we fight and fight. I do love him, and I know no matter what, I'm going to end up hurt, but this isn't what I need, I need someone to stand by me, I need someone who will comeover in the morning and not mind that I just woke up and I look like hell, someone who can see me more often then once a week, or month at that. I need someone to have fun with. someone I don't argue with. I just can't deal with long distance relationships, I guess sometimes love isn't enough. And I'm afraid this is soon coming to an end.
I woke up this morning at 9:22 with HORRIBLE cramps, I could not even move, so I figured, great, I'm on my period, and went to the bathroom, sure enough I am, popped some midol and layed back down, I have the most horrible cramps in the world, they hurt so bad i curl in a little ball and moan while I punch my stomach.
Brandon and Chewy came over a couple days ago, I don't know why, but I was being shy, I hate that so much, anyways, we went and seen Emory, I missed that sun of a gun. Emorys in quit your life now, if you didn't know. And they're playing at the local stage for worped tour, and they have a show on the 20th. :] go ?
Lately I feel like I need something new in my life, something differnt, I don't know what, but I just feel like I have the same ol' things to do. I could use a good guy friend. Maybe I should move or something lol, I feel like there isn't anything here in LP for me anymore.
Mike and I haven't been good at all. I haven't seen him for 3 weeks, and whenever we talk, we fight and fight. I do love him, and I know no matter what, I'm going to end up hurt, but this isn't what I need, I need someone to stand by me, I need someone who will comeover in the morning and not mind that I just woke up and I look like hell, someone who can see me more often then once a week, or month at that. I need someone to have fun with. someone I don't argue with. I just can't deal with long distance relationships, I guess sometimes love isn't enough. And I'm afraid this is soon coming to an end.
I woke up this morning at 9:22 with HORRIBLE cramps, I could not even move, so I figured, great, I'm on my period, and went to the bathroom, sure enough I am, popped some midol and layed back down, I have the most horrible cramps in the world, they hurt so bad i curl in a little ball and moan while I punch my stomach.
Brandon and Chewy came over a couple days ago, I don't know why, but I was being shy, I hate that so much, anyways, we went and seen Emory, I missed that sun of a gun. Emorys in quit your life now, if you didn't know. And they're playing at the local stage for worped tour, and they have a show on the 20th. :] go ?
Lately I feel like I need something new in my life, something differnt, I don't know what, but I just feel like I have the same ol' things to do. I could use a good guy friend. Maybe I should move or something lol, I feel like there isn't anything here in LP for me anymore.