i want to explain myself for just ONE moment, to anyone who will listen, anyone who will listen.
I can't even begin to tell my story to anyone, and hurts because I can't let my past go, because it's moving on with me, tomorrow is the day, where I will find out, the exact date, I will be able to possibly feel alive again. I no longer feel as if any body understands me, I no longer feel as if I'm known. I no longer feel as if I'm alive. I need something, to shake me up, I need just ONE day of fun, I want to have fun, I'm young ain't I ? All I do is work, and worry. I don't know how to talk right, I don't know how to smile, I don't know how to calm, I only know how to love. That's one thing I would get a gold metal in, And I think alot of people fail to see the kind of person I am inside, let alone take the time to find out. I don't expect someone to understand what I'm going through, or how I feel, how can anyone if I won't tell anyone? I would need someone to fix my type writer and find me a publisher, so I can write a book, to explain myself, and why I am the way I am. For now, I know whats occurring in my mind, and I know what is soon happening, but I am a strong person, and I'll suck up every last thought untill I explode. That's one thing I can say with confidence, I am a strong person, and the good out of this, is one day, I'll look back on everything I've ever been through, and nothing can get worse than this right now, so I'll be able to get through, anything. I've grown up at a young age, I've experianced things that even 80 year olds haven't. I've yet to say that I'm pleased or happy with my life, but I'm strong, remember.