--sigh--
I'm scared. I'll finally just get it out. I've been staying up, every night when you're out with your friends, every single night, with questions in my mind if you'll be alive in the morning. It sounds so dumb, but I can't not worry about you. I worry about you taking too many pills when you drink, going to sleep and not waking up, driving drunk, i worry about so many things mike, and being that i haven't talked to you in a day dosebt make it any better, its only 8:12 right now, and i woke up, with YOU on my mind, wondering if you're okay. yesterday, i didnt talk to you all day, called and called, never did i get an answer, i couldnt help but think something happend to you. It sounds like I'm an over protective girlfriend, but mike you're lucky you're not dead yet, and that bothers me. There is so many possibilities, and risks. And you say you'll be fine but theres no garuntee to that statement. I'm not a bitch, I'm not gonna tell you to stop doing drugs or to stop drinking, you already told me you wouldn't stop for me and even if you said you did i wouldn't believe you, i mean i drink too but mike I do it by my self or with ONE friend and not in a car. You do not know, what could happen, anything could happen, and that bothers the hell out of me, I don't know what time i fell asleep last night. Questions were literally floating in my head. Whether or not you were to get alcohol poisoning or die in a drunk driving accident, or overdose, you ARE slowly killing yourself, and faster than anyone i've ever met, besides a couple people. I don't want you to stop for me, i'm not that kind of girlfriend, but like i said i wouldn't believe it if you did, i'm just letting you know this has been on my mind, alot, and has been bothering me, alot.