Soul Searching
A friend raised a question, "What's the hardest thing in life?"
I'm not sure how to answer her. A lot of things crossed my mind - losing a loved one, disappointment, giving up your dream - but I couldn't answer immediately. Amidst the silence I heard her reply. "It's uncertainty", she said. And in that moment, I realized that she was right.
For so long, I've been trying to figure out things - about life, about the world, about the people I interact with, about myself. I haven't figured a lot but there's one thing I'm sure of, I'm still naive to the ways of life.
I have always had this urge to understand things, whether they be trivial or profound. Years ago, it would really bother me if I can't comprehend things as they are. I have to have answers. I'm not like that anymore. Sure, I still get the urge to understand things, but I don't force them. I let them reveal themselves to me - in time.
Yes, feeling "uncertain" can be a real pain in the ass. It makes your head hurt - and sometimes, even your heart. But I think of it as a challenge for your self to overcome. An opportunity to search your being and assert the kind of person you are. It'll take time - lots of it, in fact. So don't pressure yourself. And then you'll notice, the haziness that once shrouded you is gone. That's the time when you'll find your answers and that "uncertainty" will ebb like the tides.
I'm not sure how to answer her. A lot of things crossed my mind - losing a loved one, disappointment, giving up your dream - but I couldn't answer immediately. Amidst the silence I heard her reply. "It's uncertainty", she said. And in that moment, I realized that she was right.
For so long, I've been trying to figure out things - about life, about the world, about the people I interact with, about myself. I haven't figured a lot but there's one thing I'm sure of, I'm still naive to the ways of life.
I have always had this urge to understand things, whether they be trivial or profound. Years ago, it would really bother me if I can't comprehend things as they are. I have to have answers. I'm not like that anymore. Sure, I still get the urge to understand things, but I don't force them. I let them reveal themselves to me - in time.
Yes, feeling "uncertain" can be a real pain in the ass. It makes your head hurt - and sometimes, even your heart. But I think of it as a challenge for your self to overcome. An opportunity to search your being and assert the kind of person you are. It'll take time - lots of it, in fact. So don't pressure yourself. And then you'll notice, the haziness that once shrouded you is gone. That's the time when you'll find your answers and that "uncertainty" will ebb like the tides.