the good and the "bad"
The past 3 weeks have been gut wrenching
First the good. I was put in a situation where I've never needed God more in my life. He broke me down and let me feel a pain like I've never felt before. For that I am extremely grateful. I reached a low so deep that God Himself was the only one that could bring me back. From that I've felt my relationship with Him grow exponentially over the past 3 weeks. We are commanded to love God with all our heart soul and mind. I gotta be honest, I never fully felt that till now. I can honestly say that I love God more than anything else and want nothing more than to grow in my faith everyday. This has been without a doubt the more precious experience I've ever (and probably will ever) had. I literally have a hunger for God now. I can't get enough from reading the bible and listening to as many messages as I can from church. Its a very exciting time in my life knowing that Im close to God and He will guide the rest of my life and shape me into the man He wants me to be. Anyone who cares enough to read this will know me well enough to know that I'm very genuine to myself. I wouldn't be saying all this if I didn't really feel it.
The "bad". Which is really not bad. For the most part I feel very good during the day but something indescribable comes over me when I think about Cortnie. I really cant describe it, I've been sitting here for a good 10 minutes trying to think of what to type. All I can say is that I love her and will be able to breath properly again when I know she loves me too.
First the good. I was put in a situation where I've never needed God more in my life. He broke me down and let me feel a pain like I've never felt before. For that I am extremely grateful. I reached a low so deep that God Himself was the only one that could bring me back. From that I've felt my relationship with Him grow exponentially over the past 3 weeks. We are commanded to love God with all our heart soul and mind. I gotta be honest, I never fully felt that till now. I can honestly say that I love God more than anything else and want nothing more than to grow in my faith everyday. This has been without a doubt the more precious experience I've ever (and probably will ever) had. I literally have a hunger for God now. I can't get enough from reading the bible and listening to as many messages as I can from church. Its a very exciting time in my life knowing that Im close to God and He will guide the rest of my life and shape me into the man He wants me to be. Anyone who cares enough to read this will know me well enough to know that I'm very genuine to myself. I wouldn't be saying all this if I didn't really feel it.
The "bad". Which is really not bad. For the most part I feel very good during the day but something indescribable comes over me when I think about Cortnie. I really cant describe it, I've been sitting here for a good 10 minutes trying to think of what to type. All I can say is that I love her and will be able to breath properly again when I know she loves me too.