transition
right now i am in some weird limbo in a couple of senses, and it is disconcerting because i obviously can't do anything about any of it but wait it out and take it day by day.
literal translation: i wish my goddamn period would start and i could get some resolve. i know that probably makes no sense to ninety percent of my readers, because they don't have vaginas, but shut up and stop feeling uncomfortable. i didn't make you read this shit.
this is the worst bout of pms i've had in a long time, and i am so stressed and uptight and sldkfjlsdjfldskjflajldsjflsjdflkjsd it is driving me insane, and it is making me short with people and i feel bad. it is also due to the fact that i have not worked out a lot lately at all, and that is making me feel even shittier.
but. hopefully that will be fixed soon.
i know not everything will be resolved then, but i will at least be more relaxed, i suppose, and more able to focus. i can't FOCUS when i'm like this.
there is really no point to this entry, but me vent vent venting.
spring break should be really fun...and relaxing. i need to relax. i can't wait to relax.
i guess i just had a bad morning, which set the tone for the rest of the day, although the day itself really wasn't THAT bad. i just woke up late and had like twenty minutes to shower and get ready for class, then i fell up the stairs today and bruised my knee really badly, and it really fucking hurts. then i had a bad pseudo lesson. probably because i'm so tired/stressed.
positive things: i started playing the bass today, and it was AMAZING. also, i am really enjoying the brahms requiem. it is gorgeous, despite its technical difficulty. spring break is positive. AND i'm going to see my grandma next weekend, which i can't wait for because i really need some grandma love.
last weekend was hana's birthday celebration. it was fun for the most part, despite the fact that it totally fucked my sleeping schedule. it was worth it, though, i guess. and i got to see the williams family, who are ranked in my top five favorite families of all time, by the way.
i had not looked at harry potter sites in a LONG time, and i am suddenly depressed that i will never again know the excitement of opening and beginning a brand new harry potter adventure. i'm lame, but that is really upsetting to me. SHUT UP. thanks.
the HBP movie comes out four days after my 22 birthday, and the DH movie will be split into two movies, released a year apart or so, but filmed simultaneously, i believe the article said.
NOW I AM GOING TO SLEEP TWELVE MINUTES AFTER I SWORE I WOULD BE IN BED AT THE LATEST (but, technically, i've been in bed since about eight o'clock.)
goodnight, livejournal land.
the most troubling and literal limbo i am currently in regards david and i. half of me doesn't understand how i'm not still with him, and the other half is over it.
i don't know. i don't feel like explaining it anymore. i had it all organized in my head, and all of a sudden, that is plenty for me. what do i need to justify to any of you, really?
literal translation: i wish my goddamn period would start and i could get some resolve. i know that probably makes no sense to ninety percent of my readers, because they don't have vaginas, but shut up and stop feeling uncomfortable. i didn't make you read this shit.
this is the worst bout of pms i've had in a long time, and i am so stressed and uptight and sldkfjlsdjfldskjflajldsjflsjdflkjsd it is driving me insane, and it is making me short with people and i feel bad. it is also due to the fact that i have not worked out a lot lately at all, and that is making me feel even shittier.
but. hopefully that will be fixed soon.
i know not everything will be resolved then, but i will at least be more relaxed, i suppose, and more able to focus. i can't FOCUS when i'm like this.
there is really no point to this entry, but me vent vent venting.
spring break should be really fun...and relaxing. i need to relax. i can't wait to relax.
i guess i just had a bad morning, which set the tone for the rest of the day, although the day itself really wasn't THAT bad. i just woke up late and had like twenty minutes to shower and get ready for class, then i fell up the stairs today and bruised my knee really badly, and it really fucking hurts. then i had a bad pseudo lesson. probably because i'm so tired/stressed.
positive things: i started playing the bass today, and it was AMAZING. also, i am really enjoying the brahms requiem. it is gorgeous, despite its technical difficulty. spring break is positive. AND i'm going to see my grandma next weekend, which i can't wait for because i really need some grandma love.
last weekend was hana's birthday celebration. it was fun for the most part, despite the fact that it totally fucked my sleeping schedule. it was worth it, though, i guess. and i got to see the williams family, who are ranked in my top five favorite families of all time, by the way.
i had not looked at harry potter sites in a LONG time, and i am suddenly depressed that i will never again know the excitement of opening and beginning a brand new harry potter adventure. i'm lame, but that is really upsetting to me. SHUT UP. thanks.
the HBP movie comes out four days after my 22 birthday, and the DH movie will be split into two movies, released a year apart or so, but filmed simultaneously, i believe the article said.
NOW I AM GOING TO SLEEP TWELVE MINUTES AFTER I SWORE I WOULD BE IN BED AT THE LATEST (but, technically, i've been in bed since about eight o'clock.)
goodnight, livejournal land.
the most troubling and literal limbo i am currently in regards david and i. half of me doesn't understand how i'm not still with him, and the other half is over it.
i don't know. i don't feel like explaining it anymore. i had it all organized in my head, and all of a sudden, that is plenty for me. what do i need to justify to any of you, really?