Jan 30, 2006 03:54
Contrary to popular opinion, my substance has not gotten the better of me. I say to you all, let he who is without sin cast the first stone. If I've changed, it's for the better. I've had the same bad habits since the day I met most of you. I try to be honest and caring, and I feel I succeed.
Try looking at yourselves. Our 'group' has become so concerned with excluding people that we begin to exclude the ones we care for most, just because they had a bad day and might ruin the mood. I'm guilty of it, the same as everyone else. In our efforts to establish a tight-knit group, we forgot to tie the knots tight enough. It was superficial from the start, and it fell apart in moments. True friends would not let each other slip away through the cracks, but that's what happened.
Maybe you all can be happy for me, because I'm finally happy for myself. I'm doing well in school (despite my obvious substance abuse problems), I've made new close friends (despite the fact that I may change soon and they'll forget about me), and I'm finally happy (despite all these poor life-decisions I seem to make).
So stop worrying about me, I'm fine. Start worrying about yourselves, and maybe you'll see the problem. Don't preach when you're no better than the one you think you're above.
When you define me, you negate me.