[oneshot] and the worst of it now (i can't remember your face)

[gdgdbaby]

Title: and the worst of it now (i can't remember your face)
Pairing: GTOP
Rating: pg13
Genre: angst, hurt/comfort, au
Warnings: swearing
Author: gdgdbaby
Notes: it’s the anniversary of a close friend’s death. college au in which daul kim is a vocalist. (based on damian kulash’s true story behind the song. not related to so cordial, so rotten but could be

Comments

[lovelyable]

oh, lucy.

there are so many descriptions in this that i just fell in love with. the way you described jiyong just giving into seunghyun's arms was so - i want to say heartwarming but at the same time jiyong is a little bit alone in his hurt so idk if that'd be appropriate - and everything about the way jiyong compartmentalizing his life was perfect. i think a few places in j and s's dialogue is a little awkward, but the transition out of it with seungri calling is nice and natural. the last scene is. :(. you and last scenes, i swear. ;____; but i think the one phrase that hurts the most is she would’ve been wild and courageous and beautiful and completely herself, ack, i can't even, you. ♥

[lovelyable]

compartmentalizes* wowww summer, you need sleep.

[gdgdbaby]

gack i love you and your long, thought-out comments ;; ♥

i'm really glad you liked the descriptions because lady, you are so good at them yourself ;~; i feel like jiyong is legit manic depressive sometimes, just his personality and everything, idk. and yeah, sigh, the dialogue could definitely use some work. and don't even talk about last scenes omg lol ;; i'm so pleased you like this ahhhh! and really, that's how i think about daul still, after all these months :( ty for reading bbygirl :)

[iheartmango]

GDI I HAVE TO GO SCHOOL!
NOOOO I'LL HAVE TO WAIT 6 HOURS BEFORE I CAN READ IT DDDD:

[gdgdbaby]

LOL GIRL IT'S ALL GOOD, TAKE YOUR TIME BBY ♥ 8D

[gdgdbaby]

thank you so much ;; yeah definitely, sometimes he seems like a machine: well oiled some days and not so much on others :\ all i know is that he has to find some way to deal with all the stress that he endures from day to day. and yes, daul was absolutely amazing :') i'm really glad you liked this! ♥

[italina_bella]

you wrote this well. jiyoung emotions and his realizations that he forgot what his friend looked liked. This actually mad me cry. I had a friend who died young, too young. It wasn't until graduation of high school that i realized i forgot what he looked liked.

he thinks, and that was the tragedy of it all, really, that she’d died so young. the one sentence that got me crying.

[gdgdbaby]

i'm really glad you liked it! and omg :( i'm sorry it made you cry /passes you tissue. but still happy that the fic seemed so true to life for you? thank you so much for reading ;; ♥

[romantikyu]

This is definitely going to my memories, because this whole fic just screams "worth remembering!" to me. The way you portray Jiyong's emotions, it's like... you do it from Seunghyun's perspective. That Seunghyun knows, yet not, and we know through him yet it's kinda unclear. I make no sense /rambles

I wish I could write like you ;; because this was so beautiful and it inspired me to try Big Bang fic /writes. Lots of fandoms should have more authors like you, who can write like this and yet make it a happy ending despite the fic involving death and really serious matters.

Also, loving how you put in Seungho, despite him being the reason the two fell out the window. I think, if this had happened in real life, I wouldn't have blamed Seungho either.

On the bottom, near the crease where the page meets the spine of the book and bleeds into the next, Daul’s untidy, fourth-grade scrawl declares a proud “my friends.”
Best part, hands down ♥

[gdgdbaby]

omg this is like the most thought-out comment i have ever received :'D ackk thank you so much for memming it! and i'm really honored that i inspired you to write bb fic ;o; we always need more writers and sigh, the fandom is so laidback and friendly :') i hope you really like it here!

to be honest my writing was terrible when i first started out, and your writing is probably very good already ;) so i'm sure you'll be just fine writing for big bang as well keke :D

and goddd i had the most trouble with the end (i swear, i wrote like five different versions of it) so i'm really really pleased you liked that part the most ;; ♥!

[romantikyu]

blink what, really? /stare. wow, I'd never expect that! but I'm glad it was anyway ^^ big bang fandom has always kind of like, attracted me, because everyone seemed like you said, laid back and friendly :3 so I'll try~

mine was too, mine was too xD I think everyone aren't that... good when they first start out. but hey, your writing is excellent now, and I hope to reach up to your level someday :D

oooh, endings are always hard, but this one was really beautiful ;; and kind of sad too, because it reflected back to the rest of the fic a lot ♥