New Skills
Good morning Everyone! =)
This is just a brief note of amusement.
All of the new skills I have to learn are both fun and challenging.
Sitting with my legs together is one of the ones that is going to take some time. I know I'll be able to do it soon, but atm it requires muscles that, as a guy I have never used in my life. I've been practicing by sitting here in my heels while working or playing games and holding my legs together. The muscled in my inner thighs get so tired that my legs quiver, but as they beauty is neither cheap nor painless. Leg quivers and all, I'll get this down!
Guys are such complete and total slobs. They just lounge about and throw their bodies any which way is comfortable no matter where they are. LOL =)
One thing that will really help is when I get my orchiectomy. Wow, I can't wait. Getting rid of those two things hanging down between my legs will allow me so sit with my legs together more easily.
I also want to loose the male aspects of my sex drive. I've always hated my sex drive and now it feels even worse. I believe that is has caused me a lot of issues with my female friends because there is still that little male drive at the back of my mind that wants to have sex with them. There is nothing more discouraging than spending time with a good friend and realizing afterward that you may have totally screwed up with her because you inferred at some point that you would like to have sex with her. It can be really frustrating at times.
My female friends are precious to me, more so than any male friendship that I have ever had. Maybe that's a sign that my thinking really is turning female and that I am finally starting to relate my value in life to the number and quality of my friends and relationships instead of the male way of finding self-value in position within society.
Anyway, now that I have freed myself to transition, I'm very much wanting HRT, an orchiectomy and SRS. I am going to pursue these with great enthusiasm as necessary parts of my journey.
*hugs*
GD