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Is it possible to just be friends with someone who you know you have more than friend feelings for? I guess thats what Im going to find out. There is this guy that Im interested in. He doesnt know what he wants yet but he does want us to be friends and then see what happens. Thats where the problem comes in. How am I going to be able to hang out with someone knowing I have feelings for him? If we hang out all the time and then he decides that he just wants to be friends in the end then its going to suck for me. I told him today that I dont think we should hang out anymore and he was upset or confused.. one of the two. I feel like such an idiot. Why cant I just hang out with him as friends? It could end up turning into more but Id rather just not be around him at all. Im queer, its official! Anyways I guess on to good news. I got a job at Old Navy!! Yaaaay! I go to orientation next week. Its in Lex. which is like 45 mins from my house but Im just stoked that I got a job. Ashley had her baby. Justin Lucas Stamper!!! I only got to see him for a minute but of course he's adorable. Im talking to my friend Wesley again. He and I were friends in high school but hadnt talked since I moved away. Its sucks that he works in Indiana now though. Hes coming home for the 4th so we're going to hang out. My aunt says I always go for the complicated ones. I guess its true. Wesley and J both have complications. Well Im outta here. Tomorrow is the family bbq/carnival/fireworks event and I have to get my booth ready since I'll be at Coach D's party during the day.