thanks to you.
ive never been this unhappy.
everything is falling apart.
& i dont know what im doing wrong but i know its my fault.
im pulling myself away from society & away from my friends.
this way i cant be hurt by anyone else.
im not letting anyone get close to me anymore.
i dont want people to know the real me.
im not pretty.
& im not something you will like.
from now on when people want me to hang out, im going to say no.
this way i wont be hurt & i cant have a bad time or be let down.
&& never before have i resulted to drinking to take my pain away.
what have i done.
im living with so much regret.
i shouldnt have done it.
all i want is to be happy again & i want to stop crying.
please just once.
im sorry.
ill put on a fake smile at school just so people wont ask me how im doing.
it's the only way of getting around the 'are you ok' questions.
im such an open person & i guess its bad to tell people how you feel because they take advantage of you or they just dont give a fuck.
my 18th b-day is next month.
& all i want is to get away.
far far away.
ps.
there are still some of you that make me happy & havent done anything wrong so dont think i hate you when i say i dont want to hang out.
im just scared of being hurt by you.
im so sorry.
everything is falling apart.
& i dont know what im doing wrong but i know its my fault.
im pulling myself away from society & away from my friends.
this way i cant be hurt by anyone else.
im not letting anyone get close to me anymore.
i dont want people to know the real me.
im not pretty.
& im not something you will like.
from now on when people want me to hang out, im going to say no.
this way i wont be hurt & i cant have a bad time or be let down.
&& never before have i resulted to drinking to take my pain away.
what have i done.
im living with so much regret.
i shouldnt have done it.
all i want is to be happy again & i want to stop crying.
please just once.
im sorry.
ill put on a fake smile at school just so people wont ask me how im doing.
it's the only way of getting around the 'are you ok' questions.
im such an open person & i guess its bad to tell people how you feel because they take advantage of you or they just dont give a fuck.
my 18th b-day is next month.
& all i want is to get away.
far far away.
ps.
there are still some of you that make me happy & havent done anything wrong so dont think i hate you when i say i dont want to hang out.
im just scared of being hurt by you.
im so sorry.