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im not going to school today.
i dont feel good.
you know what hurts?
when someone you thought was one of your best friends just suddenly stops talking to you.
its funny how everything changed between us.
i dont know what i did either.
he used to sit next to me in class
&& he would come talk to me at my locker every chance he got.
& now im lucky if he even acknowledges me.
its nice to know i mean nothing to him
when i would have done anything for him.
i confronted him about it yesterday after school.
i simply said "do you hate me?"
& he said "no, why?"
& i said "because you never talk to me so i just figured you hated me."
& he said "no."
& that was the end of that.
i really wish it didnt turn out like this.
i really do love him as a friend.
but i guess maybe he isnt the person i thought he was.
all i know is that if someone told him something to make him stop being my friend, i hope they die.
i have youth group tonight which im hoping will be fun.
im sure it will be.
&
im going camping this weekend with niki & a bunch of other people and were going to have a few friends come out.
im sure we'll have a good time.
we always do no matter what.
i was proud of myself yesterday.
in sign language when we had to give a speech about our report nobody wanted to go first so mrs. bundy was just going to call on random people & she started laughing and goes you should see the look on your faces so i was like hmmm what do i have to lose so i raised my hand & said i would go first. now granted I HATEEEEE being in front of people. i become a nervous wreck but not this time. it was cool though everybody clapped & cheered me on. like i said i was proud.
i guess my grandma & uncle our still moving in & i absolutely hate it.
ive been praying every night that it wont happen.
i like living alone.
i like being alone.
when they move in, i promise i will never be home.
this is the perfect time to get a boyfriend
that way i can go out with him whenever i want.
& i need to find my own place where i can be alone.
33 more days until my 18th birthday.
yesss.
me & leann are going to Ibar sometime after.
im excited.
i dont feel good.
you know what hurts?
when someone you thought was one of your best friends just suddenly stops talking to you.
its funny how everything changed between us.
i dont know what i did either.
he used to sit next to me in class
&& he would come talk to me at my locker every chance he got.
& now im lucky if he even acknowledges me.
its nice to know i mean nothing to him
when i would have done anything for him.
i confronted him about it yesterday after school.
i simply said "do you hate me?"
& he said "no, why?"
& i said "because you never talk to me so i just figured you hated me."
& he said "no."
& that was the end of that.
i really wish it didnt turn out like this.
i really do love him as a friend.
but i guess maybe he isnt the person i thought he was.
all i know is that if someone told him something to make him stop being my friend, i hope they die.
i have youth group tonight which im hoping will be fun.
im sure it will be.
&
im going camping this weekend with niki & a bunch of other people and were going to have a few friends come out.
im sure we'll have a good time.
we always do no matter what.
i was proud of myself yesterday.
in sign language when we had to give a speech about our report nobody wanted to go first so mrs. bundy was just going to call on random people & she started laughing and goes you should see the look on your faces so i was like hmmm what do i have to lose so i raised my hand & said i would go first. now granted I HATEEEEE being in front of people. i become a nervous wreck but not this time. it was cool though everybody clapped & cheered me on. like i said i was proud.
i guess my grandma & uncle our still moving in & i absolutely hate it.
ive been praying every night that it wont happen.
i like living alone.
i like being alone.
when they move in, i promise i will never be home.
this is the perfect time to get a boyfriend
that way i can go out with him whenever i want.
& i need to find my own place where i can be alone.
33 more days until my 18th birthday.
yesss.
me & leann are going to Ibar sometime after.
im excited.