I wish I could just be indifferent about her......hating her means I still care...
So it's definitley been over a year since I have posted in this damn thing. I almost completely forgot about Livejournal and all the drama that usually came along with it.
I just finished up my freshman year at SIU. There were definitley a lot of moments I thought about stepping out in front of a bus and just wanting to go home because I hated it so much. But looking back there were definitley a lot more happy moments than bad ones. There were issues with my suitemate and then that whole month that I didn't speak to my roommate......but as life usually works.....it all worked out in the end. I'm living by myself in an apartment next fall....I get to take my dog. A lot of people would go nuts living by themselves, which....I could understand, but my friend Jen is living next door to me, then a few of the guys are living across the street. Amy, Rach and Mols are living across town which sucks....but I will make a consious effort to still see them as much as possible.
I got home Friday night around 4 and then went to the Matches show with Emily, someone I definitley had not hung out with in forever. I didn't realize how much everyone who stayed at home has changed. Everyone has made new friends, including myself. After I left the show, I was scrolling through my phone thinking of someone to call to hang out with and realized that almost all of my numbers are friends from Carbondale. Most of the time I would come home and hang out with Cousin....not that I'm complaining because I love her and Jesse to death, but I'm sure she gets sick of hanging out with me all the time. I lost Andrew as a friend for numerous reasons.....so of course by association I'm not really friends with Jase either. Abby hangs out with Andy when she comes home, and Carl is always working. I did get to hang out with him all Saturday night which was really nice. I've missed him SO much. I pretty much consider him my best friend nowadays.
I really did have a good first year at school even though there were quite a few things I would change if I could. Your first year is definitley a rollercoaster. Mine pretty much consisted of getting drunk and making new friends and stressing like crazy about classes. First semester I did really good but second semester I slacked off way too much. It wasn't even because of partying but just because I have no motivation whatsoever. I miss Cdale already and everyone who comes along with it.
Anyways! I'm working at Farm and Fleet again this summer and was planning on getting a second job just to save up for stuff for my apartment as well. I was offered a job at Smoothie King, but then I found out that not only would I get 40 hours a week at Farm n Fleet, but I would be getting a raise AND I would be department head of sporting goods. So that's fantastic.
What else? Oh we got a hot tub today. My parents sold our old truck and wanted to buy a new car but couldn't find anything they really liked so they decided to just wait until Phil and Dan are completely on their own. So they took the money and got a new hot tub....It's not all set up yet 'cause we have to have the electrician out then we have to fill it up.
Cousin turns 21 on saturday! woot woot! Which means I get to go out to the bars hopefully, AND then i get her ID to use the rest of the summer. Not that I'll have time to go out....OR anyone to go out with..
I need to find some time to go visit peopel from school. I wanna go to Bourbanais to visit Rach and Aims and then head up to Schaumberg to visit my darling Borana. I'll definitley make a trip down to Cdale to stay with my Timmy Tot too. Oooh how I miss my friends.
I just finished up my freshman year at SIU. There were definitley a lot of moments I thought about stepping out in front of a bus and just wanting to go home because I hated it so much. But looking back there were definitley a lot more happy moments than bad ones. There were issues with my suitemate and then that whole month that I didn't speak to my roommate......but as life usually works.....it all worked out in the end. I'm living by myself in an apartment next fall....I get to take my dog. A lot of people would go nuts living by themselves, which....I could understand, but my friend Jen is living next door to me, then a few of the guys are living across the street. Amy, Rach and Mols are living across town which sucks....but I will make a consious effort to still see them as much as possible.
I got home Friday night around 4 and then went to the Matches show with Emily, someone I definitley had not hung out with in forever. I didn't realize how much everyone who stayed at home has changed. Everyone has made new friends, including myself. After I left the show, I was scrolling through my phone thinking of someone to call to hang out with and realized that almost all of my numbers are friends from Carbondale. Most of the time I would come home and hang out with Cousin....not that I'm complaining because I love her and Jesse to death, but I'm sure she gets sick of hanging out with me all the time. I lost Andrew as a friend for numerous reasons.....so of course by association I'm not really friends with Jase either. Abby hangs out with Andy when she comes home, and Carl is always working. I did get to hang out with him all Saturday night which was really nice. I've missed him SO much. I pretty much consider him my best friend nowadays.
I really did have a good first year at school even though there were quite a few things I would change if I could. Your first year is definitley a rollercoaster. Mine pretty much consisted of getting drunk and making new friends and stressing like crazy about classes. First semester I did really good but second semester I slacked off way too much. It wasn't even because of partying but just because I have no motivation whatsoever. I miss Cdale already and everyone who comes along with it.
Anyways! I'm working at Farm and Fleet again this summer and was planning on getting a second job just to save up for stuff for my apartment as well. I was offered a job at Smoothie King, but then I found out that not only would I get 40 hours a week at Farm n Fleet, but I would be getting a raise AND I would be department head of sporting goods. So that's fantastic.
What else? Oh we got a hot tub today. My parents sold our old truck and wanted to buy a new car but couldn't find anything they really liked so they decided to just wait until Phil and Dan are completely on their own. So they took the money and got a new hot tub....It's not all set up yet 'cause we have to have the electrician out then we have to fill it up.
Cousin turns 21 on saturday! woot woot! Which means I get to go out to the bars hopefully, AND then i get her ID to use the rest of the summer. Not that I'll have time to go out....OR anyone to go out with..
I need to find some time to go visit peopel from school. I wanna go to Bourbanais to visit Rach and Aims and then head up to Schaumberg to visit my darling Borana. I'll definitley make a trip down to Cdale to stay with my Timmy Tot too. Oooh how I miss my friends.