I get so lonely...can't let just anyone hold me. You are the one that lives in me, my dear...
Yall remember how fucking nervous I was the other night? Like, so much so that I wanted to cancel? Man...I shouldn't have been and I'm so excited to update my Livejournal with this because that means I get to relive everything...every single little thing he said, did, or just was. I'm honestly so happy. Just so so happy. And it's crazy. I never thought I'd get a guy and the one I've found is so completely amazing in every single way. I love everything about him. Jason is just....amazing. Unlike any guy I've liked in the past. Okay...
The day started at 1230 yesterday afternoon and I didn't get home until 5 this morning. I met him and his friend Jim at the old McDonald's in Alden and I was a little nervous, but okay. So, we went all the way to Sunset Bay Beach in Chataqua County. It was a long ass ride, like an hour and a half to get there. So, we hung out at the beach for awhile. Jason and I tried to go swimming, but the water was too damn cold, so we sat on the beach with Jim. I got burned on my back so fucking bad! Anyways. Then we went to this place called Ja Fa Fa's for lunch. In the time it took me to eat one hot dog and some fries, Jason and Jim had downed a total of 8 hot dogs!! I didn't finish my lunch, because man they gave me a hella lot of fries. Shoo...
After lunch, we went to the Galleria to bum around for awhile. We just hung out. It was all cool and shit. I had a good time, just walking around and talking and all. After Galleria, they took me to this park off of Main St. in Williamsville with a waterfall. We looked at the waterfall and then the three of us sat on a bench and I sat between Jason and Jim and Jason and I were all close and stuff and that was rad.
After the park, we headed over to Subway to pick up Tristin. Dude, Jim was beyond psyched to hang out with her. He just kept talking about it all day! So, we got there...and damn, it's just hard to put everything down. We sat on the curb/in the car for awhile until Tristin went to Tops to change. She confirmed that Jason was hott...of course he is, yo! Ha ha. After that, we decided to go to the drive-in and I was mad excited because it was my first time. We had to stop by Jason's apartment so he could get some money and then we went to Denny's for something to eat. Then, we went to the drive in. We saw 2Fast2Furious which was 0FF THE H00K!! and The Hulk. During 2F2F, Tristin and Jim were all making out in the backseat. I moved up front to sit with Jason and Jim went in the back. It was his idea...I just helped it along, if you know what I mean ; ) Between movies, Jason got out of the car for a cigarette and I got out and stood with him. I told him how Tristin never has any trouble finding a guy at like parties and clubs and that they just seem to find her. And Jason asked me if that happened to me and all I did was shake my head no. He was kinda surprised by that. But then he said, "You found me." Then he went on to say that he would have kissed me right there, but he just had the cigarette and then he all fumbled around saying that it wasn't the reason he had the cigarette. Then he took my hand and he goes, "I hope you don't mind." And I didn't. And that felt so right, like my hand was made to be held in his. And the way he just kept squeezing my hand every so often, it was so cute. I could tell by his hands that he'd not let anything happen to me. We looked at constellations and at that moment, I couldn't have been any happier.
We decided to stay for the Hulk, even though it meant Tristin and I would get our asses kicked, but I just wanted to be with Jason longer. I didn't wanna go home. I seriously didn't. Jason and I got back in the car and I just rested my hand down and he goes, "Ah, come here." and he took my hand again. We held hands for the whole movie and he got cramped and his wrist started hurting and he thought mine did too so he rubbed it, but then he just put his hand over mine. *sigh* We finally decided to go back and we dropped Tristin off at Subway and Jim got her number and it looks like they are gonna hang out again, which is cool. Jason and I were in the car, and yall are gonna like stop reading b/c I'm telling you about every little thing, but...man. Jason turned around to look at me because I was in the backseat again and I said,"What?" and he goes, "Nothing." And I asked him what he looked at me for and he said, "I just wanted to look at ya is all." Then they drove me back to my car and as Jim folded down the seat, Jason turned around and he looked at me and there was just something in his eyes, but I dont know what, like hope and happiness or something, but he had me slap him five and he took my hand and goes, "Will you call me?" So, I said I would tonight. And then, he kissed my hand that he was holding and he looked at me with those beautiful eyes of his and all I could do was smile. And that was our "first date."
There's something about this kid. He's so rad. He really is. He's funny and sweet and cool and fucking polite. He holds doors, he says excuse me and he fucking asked my permission to hold my hand. Most guys would be just Mr. Grabby Hands. But not Jason. And the kissing the hand thing was better than a real kiss. It was totally sweet and just so cute.
Man...and his eyes. He's got beautiful eyes--even Tristin thought so. They are like a sea greeny blue and he's got long lashes...he's so amazing and I can't wait to see him next week and talk to him tonight.
I'm so fucking happy.
<33,
ali
PS_He rememebered that I had a favorite Beach Boys song and yesterday, he asked me what it was so I told him (Don't WOrry Baby). It came on in the car on the way back from everything and he turned it up and started singing along. Man...
The day started at 1230 yesterday afternoon and I didn't get home until 5 this morning. I met him and his friend Jim at the old McDonald's in Alden and I was a little nervous, but okay. So, we went all the way to Sunset Bay Beach in Chataqua County. It was a long ass ride, like an hour and a half to get there. So, we hung out at the beach for awhile. Jason and I tried to go swimming, but the water was too damn cold, so we sat on the beach with Jim. I got burned on my back so fucking bad! Anyways. Then we went to this place called Ja Fa Fa's for lunch. In the time it took me to eat one hot dog and some fries, Jason and Jim had downed a total of 8 hot dogs!! I didn't finish my lunch, because man they gave me a hella lot of fries. Shoo...
After lunch, we went to the Galleria to bum around for awhile. We just hung out. It was all cool and shit. I had a good time, just walking around and talking and all. After Galleria, they took me to this park off of Main St. in Williamsville with a waterfall. We looked at the waterfall and then the three of us sat on a bench and I sat between Jason and Jim and Jason and I were all close and stuff and that was rad.
After the park, we headed over to Subway to pick up Tristin. Dude, Jim was beyond psyched to hang out with her. He just kept talking about it all day! So, we got there...and damn, it's just hard to put everything down. We sat on the curb/in the car for awhile until Tristin went to Tops to change. She confirmed that Jason was hott...of course he is, yo! Ha ha. After that, we decided to go to the drive-in and I was mad excited because it was my first time. We had to stop by Jason's apartment so he could get some money and then we went to Denny's for something to eat. Then, we went to the drive in. We saw 2Fast2Furious which was 0FF THE H00K!! and The Hulk. During 2F2F, Tristin and Jim were all making out in the backseat. I moved up front to sit with Jason and Jim went in the back. It was his idea...I just helped it along, if you know what I mean ; ) Between movies, Jason got out of the car for a cigarette and I got out and stood with him. I told him how Tristin never has any trouble finding a guy at like parties and clubs and that they just seem to find her. And Jason asked me if that happened to me and all I did was shake my head no. He was kinda surprised by that. But then he said, "You found me." Then he went on to say that he would have kissed me right there, but he just had the cigarette and then he all fumbled around saying that it wasn't the reason he had the cigarette. Then he took my hand and he goes, "I hope you don't mind." And I didn't. And that felt so right, like my hand was made to be held in his. And the way he just kept squeezing my hand every so often, it was so cute. I could tell by his hands that he'd not let anything happen to me. We looked at constellations and at that moment, I couldn't have been any happier.
We decided to stay for the Hulk, even though it meant Tristin and I would get our asses kicked, but I just wanted to be with Jason longer. I didn't wanna go home. I seriously didn't. Jason and I got back in the car and I just rested my hand down and he goes, "Ah, come here." and he took my hand again. We held hands for the whole movie and he got cramped and his wrist started hurting and he thought mine did too so he rubbed it, but then he just put his hand over mine. *sigh* We finally decided to go back and we dropped Tristin off at Subway and Jim got her number and it looks like they are gonna hang out again, which is cool. Jason and I were in the car, and yall are gonna like stop reading b/c I'm telling you about every little thing, but...man. Jason turned around to look at me because I was in the backseat again and I said,"What?" and he goes, "Nothing." And I asked him what he looked at me for and he said, "I just wanted to look at ya is all." Then they drove me back to my car and as Jim folded down the seat, Jason turned around and he looked at me and there was just something in his eyes, but I dont know what, like hope and happiness or something, but he had me slap him five and he took my hand and goes, "Will you call me?" So, I said I would tonight. And then, he kissed my hand that he was holding and he looked at me with those beautiful eyes of his and all I could do was smile. And that was our "first date."
There's something about this kid. He's so rad. He really is. He's funny and sweet and cool and fucking polite. He holds doors, he says excuse me and he fucking asked my permission to hold my hand. Most guys would be just Mr. Grabby Hands. But not Jason. And the kissing the hand thing was better than a real kiss. It was totally sweet and just so cute.
Man...and his eyes. He's got beautiful eyes--even Tristin thought so. They are like a sea greeny blue and he's got long lashes...he's so amazing and I can't wait to see him next week and talk to him tonight.
I'm so fucking happy.
<33,
ali
PS_He rememebered that I had a favorite Beach Boys song and yesterday, he asked me what it was so I told him (Don't WOrry Baby). It came on in the car on the way back from everything and he turned it up and started singing along. Man...