copy paste from other journal for those who've read it.
fuck february, fuck january, fuck december, fuck 2003.. fuck 2004.. fuck fuck fuck... I don't look forward to April and I don't look forward to May because it just comes closer to leaving without having a license in my hot little hand... (big hand.. whatever) and I'm scared to death of that.. I just want it to come together.. damnit...
so in four days I have managed to piss off everyone. I'm on a great roll... I've pissed off my closest friends, my brother, his wife and probably even her son.. I pissed my mom off.. I pissed myself off.. oh well I didn't piss my bosses off but they certainly got to hear what an IDIOT my brother is when I'm on the phone.. he has the worst fucking timing I swear to God.
I pissed people off tonight... well whatever I dunno, I'm tired of it.. starting to think its something I'm doing.
NOTHING is making me feel better, wtf.. I've been listening to music.. and editing.. and doing all this shit that ALWAYS helps me but.. yeah... no it's not helping..
could be that when I play music someone comes banging on my door that its too loud
and when im editing I'm stressing that it's going to be LATE for the rough cut by friday...
fuck stress, I hate stress, stress can eat my ass. you heard me.. EAT MY ASS... I need a boyfriend.. oh but don't get me started on that whirlpool of fun
I got accused of stealing my brother's cds today... yeah that was exciting.. I have like 300 + cds and he's accusing me of taking his crappy music. He accused me of taking smile empty soul which is funny because.. that.. was mine in the first place... but that's beside the point... oh and he bitched at me for taking my dvds back saying I didnt pay for them so why should I have them.. when.. I ... did.. pay for them.. they're PART of the reason I am in debt right now.. fuck.. that's a WHOLE different issue.. again.
I love how drama just whirls itself around me.. I hate drama with a passion and most of the drama I have doesn't even involve me directly.. its what people bring around me that somehow ends up involving me. FOR EXAMPLE: My brother blames me for being bored. He actually holds a grudge for my birth... like I had any control over that... now see.. that doesn't involve me AT ALL but since I was product of it, it's all my fault I was born... how can you like someone who hates you for being born?
or someone who tells you that you don't have a real job... he works two days out of the week and it's like I should drop to my knees and kiss his feet, dear king joe
:sigh: he actually told me to get a new job... then he tells me i do nothing with my life all I do is sit at home, online all day while everyone goes out and works.. yeah I guess we'll see who he crawls to for money in a few years.
god, now this is why I've been so easily irritated... it's been NON-STOP since friday.. and I don't foresee it stopping anytime soon, of course.
He's really killing me, a slow agonizing death.
anyway, I'm done... sorry that it's not at ALL formatted... I just.. yeah anyway, talk to ya'll later. Peace.
BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH
:ends bitching here:
so in four days I have managed to piss off everyone. I'm on a great roll... I've pissed off my closest friends, my brother, his wife and probably even her son.. I pissed my mom off.. I pissed myself off.. oh well I didn't piss my bosses off but they certainly got to hear what an IDIOT my brother is when I'm on the phone.. he has the worst fucking timing I swear to God.
I pissed people off tonight... well whatever I dunno, I'm tired of it.. starting to think its something I'm doing.
NOTHING is making me feel better, wtf.. I've been listening to music.. and editing.. and doing all this shit that ALWAYS helps me but.. yeah... no it's not helping..
could be that when I play music someone comes banging on my door that its too loud
and when im editing I'm stressing that it's going to be LATE for the rough cut by friday...
fuck stress, I hate stress, stress can eat my ass. you heard me.. EAT MY ASS... I need a boyfriend.. oh but don't get me started on that whirlpool of fun
I got accused of stealing my brother's cds today... yeah that was exciting.. I have like 300 + cds and he's accusing me of taking his crappy music. He accused me of taking smile empty soul which is funny because.. that.. was mine in the first place... but that's beside the point... oh and he bitched at me for taking my dvds back saying I didnt pay for them so why should I have them.. when.. I ... did.. pay for them.. they're PART of the reason I am in debt right now.. fuck.. that's a WHOLE different issue.. again.
I love how drama just whirls itself around me.. I hate drama with a passion and most of the drama I have doesn't even involve me directly.. its what people bring around me that somehow ends up involving me. FOR EXAMPLE: My brother blames me for being bored. He actually holds a grudge for my birth... like I had any control over that... now see.. that doesn't involve me AT ALL but since I was product of it, it's all my fault I was born... how can you like someone who hates you for being born?
or someone who tells you that you don't have a real job... he works two days out of the week and it's like I should drop to my knees and kiss his feet, dear king joe
:sigh: he actually told me to get a new job... then he tells me i do nothing with my life all I do is sit at home, online all day while everyone goes out and works.. yeah I guess we'll see who he crawls to for money in a few years.
god, now this is why I've been so easily irritated... it's been NON-STOP since friday.. and I don't foresee it stopping anytime soon, of course.
He's really killing me, a slow agonizing death.
anyway, I'm done... sorry that it's not at ALL formatted... I just.. yeah anyway, talk to ya'll later. Peace.
BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH
:ends bitching here: