Feels like the first time
Well I suppose it feels like the first time because it is the first time that I'm writing in this thing. Well I don't really know why I'm starting this....maybe it's because everyone else is doing it....maybe it's because I have/ have had a lot of things on my mind. Well I suppose I can start with the summer and bring everyone who reads this up to speed on the most recent events in my life. I guess I'm actually going to start a little before the summer. I had this thing going with the most amazing girl at the end of the semester and told her that I wanted to keep things going over the summer. I don't like to use real names so we'll call her "Tracy". Lo and behold I'm a dumbass and for some reason didn't call her that much until about halfway through the summer. Yeah I know, nice screw up huh? You can just go ahead and add that to the list of stupid mistakes I've made. To make a long story short, I definatly put a damper and the good thing we had going. Pretty much assuming that I screwed things up with her I started talking with this other girl, we'll call her "Josie". Things seemed to be going alright with the new girl albeit things were moving quite fast. I started getting attached like I usually do. Again, long story short, things got screwed over there as well. Not my fault this time however, it was "Josie's". I suppsse that would be the short version of what happened over my summer. I mean add work everyday and some fantastic partying and that's pretty much it. So now that would bring us up to the begining the current semester at Ferris. This is where "Tracy" really comes back into the picture. We had started talking on a more reagular basis towards the end of the summer and I thought for sure things were picking back up and couldn't wait to get back to school to see her and hang out with her. Once we got back things seemed to be going in the right direction and I thought for sure things were headed towards where they were at the end of the last semester. I guess I was wrong. I can't really jump to conclusions though. She's really busy with classes and work and stuff so right now I'm attributing her not really calling me and stuff to that. Maybe I'm just lying to myself and hiding behind that. I know I'll eventually have to come out of hiding but right now I just don't think I'm ready to do that. For now I'm just gonna keep telling myself there's still hope. We'll have to see how that goes. "Tracy" if you read this then just know that I care about you and wouldn't do anything to hurt you. Anywho, I'm sure I'll get made fun of by my guy friends but I'll live. Well I think this will probably be one of the longer journal entries, we'll just see if I can keep it up. I highly doubt it. Until next writing, Peace