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This week has been blah.
I really don't know whats going on with me right now. One minute I'm smiling, the next I'm bursting into tears. The meds should be working, but they're not. I think they're making me worse actually. Yesterday was probably the worst I've been in a long while. We were doing this project in math and I simply decided I didn't want to do it so I turned it in blank. Then I was sitting there laughing at whatever was so funny. And then all of assuden I started crying. For no apparent reason. It lasted for a good hour or so. People were asking me what was wrong and I couldn't really think of one reason. All I know is that at that moment all I wanted to do was go home and cut. To get rid of the frustration and the pain. Alteast then I would have a reason for it. I couldn't stand being around so many peole trying to comfort me and asking me so many questions [thank you all for caring though]. soo I just went home. I can't exactly remember what occured between the time I got home and then had to be at work at 4. But I was fine by last night.
Hmmm. And today I went to take some photos for my presentation. went to get a mothers day present. Then Valerie and I went to the mall and bought cute shoes and skirts for graduation. Now all I need to buy is a shirt to go with it. Ugh. Too much money..Prom is coming up though, and I have everything arranged for that. It should be fun. I just need to have a good time and not be distracted by little things. I should be fine.
Tonight after working Valerie and I are gonna go back to Jeff's and probably spend the night there. She's doesn't want to be at home and my parents are going up to NJ for the rest of the weekend. We'll probably watch Chasing Liberty. If Jeff says its alright...whatever. like he has a choice in the matter. No.
I really don't know whats going on with me right now. One minute I'm smiling, the next I'm bursting into tears. The meds should be working, but they're not. I think they're making me worse actually. Yesterday was probably the worst I've been in a long while. We were doing this project in math and I simply decided I didn't want to do it so I turned it in blank. Then I was sitting there laughing at whatever was so funny. And then all of assuden I started crying. For no apparent reason. It lasted for a good hour or so. People were asking me what was wrong and I couldn't really think of one reason. All I know is that at that moment all I wanted to do was go home and cut. To get rid of the frustration and the pain. Alteast then I would have a reason for it. I couldn't stand being around so many peole trying to comfort me and asking me so many questions [thank you all for caring though]. soo I just went home. I can't exactly remember what occured between the time I got home and then had to be at work at 4. But I was fine by last night.
Hmmm. And today I went to take some photos for my presentation. went to get a mothers day present. Then Valerie and I went to the mall and bought cute shoes and skirts for graduation. Now all I need to buy is a shirt to go with it. Ugh. Too much money..Prom is coming up though, and I have everything arranged for that. It should be fun. I just need to have a good time and not be distracted by little things. I should be fine.
Tonight after working Valerie and I are gonna go back to Jeff's and probably spend the night there. She's doesn't want to be at home and my parents are going up to NJ for the rest of the weekend. We'll probably watch Chasing Liberty. If Jeff says its alright...whatever. like he has a choice in the matter. No.