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so i cant concentrate to study adn i need to bitch. hence this update. i still feel like hell. my left ovary hurts sooo bad. i went to biochem this morning and im in so much pain im nauseus. i ran a few unavoidable errands after that and went to the health center. they got a new nurse practitioner and he's actually really really nice. i saw him once on campus before and he just like said hi in passing. so yay for friendly medical professionals. anyway. so i explained my problems to him and he wrote me five vicodin so i could have some pain relief today and tomorrow. i have an ultrasound scheduled for tomorrow. so we should see what's wrong then. if the ultrasound comes back normal i have no idea what is wrong with me. the nurse practitioner said come back if the ultrasound doesnt show anything and maybe its some kind of gastrointestinal problem and we'll go that route. but yeah he was so nice. and hte nurse was so nice. it's really strange for onu health center people to be a) nice and to b) know what theyre doing. so thats really really good. im skipping anatomy right now because i really dont like the teacher and i cant focus to take notes. i have a quiz in physiology at four. i need to keep studying for that. but i feel like absolute hell. my blood pressure is sky high cause im so upset about all this. and i was sweating like crazy earlier. i took a xanax though and that helped me calm down.
update about my regular life at school here now. im so glad to be back here. i love this place really i do. actually i dont love the place i just love the people. i have really really good friends here. not that i dont have really good friends at home too, but i missed these people so much last year. and i didnt realize how bad i missed them all til i started seeing them again daily. ive been hanging out with jbright and nate every single day. theyre pretty much my favorite people on the planet. theyre the ones who kept in touch with me the most last year while i was gone. and theyre just such good people. i mean jbright sat with me for six hours at the er. and nate like calls to check on me about this shit all the time. and theyre really fun and incredible when im not in need of anything as well. it's really good to see danny again. and i love that sarah lives right below me. and it's amazing to see everyone else, but like no one reads this so i dont feel like giving unnecessary shout outs.
totally unrelated, but worth mentioning. ive talked to my dad twice since ive been here. he sent dylan a birthday card last month. and it was like totally normal, not crazy ramblings. and he gave his phone number. and he called the house last week and then called me after mom gave him my number. he sounds really really good. he has his own place now. and i guess he's doing really good with methadone and whatever. im so glad. ive always loved my dad and missed him since he moved out west. but sometimes he rambles like a crazy person. and it makes me worry about him a lot. and now it seems that i dont have to worry so much. he sent me a birthday card already. and i sent him a birthday card cause his was friday (i sent it today cause of all this ovary crap its gonna be late but whatever). i called him and talked to him on his birthday too. its just so good to hear from him. especially when hes doing well.
also i miss the kids. real bad. i miss the baby so much. and paige and wade too. i sent them all little presents. just cause i miss them. friday is my birthday and thursday is jbrights. we're supposed to go to amherst where shes from on friday for a big party cause shes turning 21. nate and danny are supposed to come along too. but the point is, since amherst is only twoish hours away from steubenville as opposed to ada being four, my mom and dylan and tay and the baby are supposed to come meet me for lunch in amherst saturday. so i can see them (and so they can give me presents). i do miss my family. i like them a lot more when i dont see them everyday though. its nice to just have good conversations with them on the phone. instead of living with them and driving me crazy. especially dylan. i love him and he makes me laugh so much. but its nice to not live with him cause when we fight its terrible. and hes such a mean snotty teenager bitch. but when im here we just talk on aim and sometimes he'll call me for random things. he's a good kid. he called to see how i was feeling and that made me happy. but i miss the baby sooo bad. i cant wait to see her saturday.
update about my regular life at school here now. im so glad to be back here. i love this place really i do. actually i dont love the place i just love the people. i have really really good friends here. not that i dont have really good friends at home too, but i missed these people so much last year. and i didnt realize how bad i missed them all til i started seeing them again daily. ive been hanging out with jbright and nate every single day. theyre pretty much my favorite people on the planet. theyre the ones who kept in touch with me the most last year while i was gone. and theyre just such good people. i mean jbright sat with me for six hours at the er. and nate like calls to check on me about this shit all the time. and theyre really fun and incredible when im not in need of anything as well. it's really good to see danny again. and i love that sarah lives right below me. and it's amazing to see everyone else, but like no one reads this so i dont feel like giving unnecessary shout outs.
totally unrelated, but worth mentioning. ive talked to my dad twice since ive been here. he sent dylan a birthday card last month. and it was like totally normal, not crazy ramblings. and he gave his phone number. and he called the house last week and then called me after mom gave him my number. he sounds really really good. he has his own place now. and i guess he's doing really good with methadone and whatever. im so glad. ive always loved my dad and missed him since he moved out west. but sometimes he rambles like a crazy person. and it makes me worry about him a lot. and now it seems that i dont have to worry so much. he sent me a birthday card already. and i sent him a birthday card cause his was friday (i sent it today cause of all this ovary crap its gonna be late but whatever). i called him and talked to him on his birthday too. its just so good to hear from him. especially when hes doing well.
also i miss the kids. real bad. i miss the baby so much. and paige and wade too. i sent them all little presents. just cause i miss them. friday is my birthday and thursday is jbrights. we're supposed to go to amherst where shes from on friday for a big party cause shes turning 21. nate and danny are supposed to come along too. but the point is, since amherst is only twoish hours away from steubenville as opposed to ada being four, my mom and dylan and tay and the baby are supposed to come meet me for lunch in amherst saturday. so i can see them (and so they can give me presents). i do miss my family. i like them a lot more when i dont see them everyday though. its nice to just have good conversations with them on the phone. instead of living with them and driving me crazy. especially dylan. i love him and he makes me laugh so much. but its nice to not live with him cause when we fight its terrible. and hes such a mean snotty teenager bitch. but when im here we just talk on aim and sometimes he'll call me for random things. he's a good kid. he called to see how i was feeling and that made me happy. but i miss the baby sooo bad. i cant wait to see her saturday.