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i am ridiculous. it is what i do. i just read through the last like 4 entries ive made. i am such a fucking rambler. there is no logical path to anything i say. perhaps i am bipolar. perhaps perhaps perhaps. so i have a biochem exam friday. so i was studying tonight. i learned a bunch of shit about carbohydrates. pretty sweet. its three am. im kind of tired now. i hung out with mike george. that kid is fucking hilarious. we bullshat at kings. cause that is what there is to do in steubenville. hmm what else. oh i have like a 106% in my west virginia northern community college stats class. yesss. i am sweet like that haha. it makes me feel so smart. so i like to tell everyone about it. cause i dont feel smart often anymore. oh and totally completely random. i was bored and looking at peoples xangas that i havent read in a while and saw that one of my friends had a link to a certain boys xanga that i didnt even know existed. and he straight says something about not understanding women. from the day he and i had a fight. haha. oh well. im sorry but if i feel an injustice has occurred i will be assertive and say something. because you will not walk all over me. and i am not your personal prostitute. you cant say that i can sleep at your place both nights and how excited you are to see me and then blow me off cause you got drunk and passed out one of those nights and then not even act like you give a damn about it the next day. shit happens i understand, but if youre not going to act like you care, or that you even want to see me the next day, then please don't let me be a waste of your time anymore. i understand that youre busy and have a life. by all means please go ahead with that, but if you are going to act like ive made some kind of outlandish request to see you after you told me for a month how you couldnt wait to see me, then im going to think that ive served my purpose and been used and you are done with me. oh my. someone is still a little bitter here isnt she? this is why i dont like emotions. and this is why i like for things to be cut and dry. once you start making me think that you want to date me and you pay all kinds of attention to me, then im going to get accustomed to that. so you cant hype something up and then all of a sudden nothing. blah. this turned into a rant about boys. straightforward is the way to go. hmm well i think im going to try to pass out now. im in one of those like awake but worthless states. so i cant really absorb anymore knowledge about carbohydrates or nucleotides or lipids. as interesting as they might be.