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So. Things aren't going to good. I have alot of things running through my head. The main thing I'm thinking about is my life---where the hell is it going? When most people are asked what they wanna do when they get older, they have answers--they have goals. Me--all I can say is "uhhh..I really like music" I know thats a big goal to persue and I have a feeling Im not gonna get anywhere. I havent even accomplished anything yet in my 14 years. I've never done any sports or taken part of any club/organization. I havent accomplished shit. What I wanna do when I get older is something that seems almost unreal to me, but im so eager to reach my goal. But all people can tell me is "yeah...okay. good luck getting there" and they say it sarcastically. Well you know what, I wanna get out of this city--out of this state! I wanna do something, I want to be something, I want to be somebody! Nobody in my family has ever accoplished anything big and I want to. I wanna get out there and do something with my life. I actually wanna persue a goal of my own rather than it just be a dream. I'm so scared of getting older and not accomplishing anything. I dont wanna be like everyone else in my family and just let life pass them by---I WANNA DO SOMETHING WITH THE LIFE THAT IS PASSING ME BY! Yet, all they can tell me is "Good Luck" sarcastically. I just wanna be somebody and i wanna accomplish something. I have no idea where the hell my life is going, but I know that I have come too far to give up now. I know that. Some people just want all the fame for the attention and money, but not me. I dont want any of that stuff. I want to persue a music career cuz music is my passion. I dont care about the fame and money. I just want to be able to support my family and help them out. I want to help my mom and my sister Lisa out of debt, I wanna help my sister Rachelle get a new car so she can throw her old one that keeps breaking down on her out, I wanna get my sister Annabelle into a very good college, and I wanna help my dad for all the times hes been there for me. Fame means nothing to me---my musical career and my family do though. Im still so confused about what Im gonna do, but I know...I just know Im gonna make it.
-Alicia-
*People always tell me not to waste my time, to get a real job and get back in line, you can say I'll never be a millionaire, tell me this guitar wont get me anywhere*