She does things.
I dont really understand. She brings the dawn of spring to mind when i think about her and my life seems to move forward. Not changing to fit her but changing to be a perswon that has something to offer someone such as her. She knows what she wants even when it is she doesnt quite know what she wants. Day breaks quickly over the horizon of time and i feel like this is all moving slow motion and it is killing me yet it is new that i dont have her already... Yet she still isnt a trophy. even if i never become more as long as she will continue to speak to me and intrigue my mind as she does now i would be the happiest man on the planet. I genuinely enjoy the feeling of our minds connecting like the pacific currents meeting the warmer southern waters it creats a place where new life and energy is of no shortage. Ever seen what you want out of life in front of you and not even been jealous that you dont yet have that? That may not make sense to you yet but someday i pray that it will for you that you will know what it is to just know someone is everything you ever want and you wouldnt add yourself if you thought it would take away from their life. Like for real there is no excuse for the way i feel and i dont want there to be i am fine with here being no reason or cause for the pure joy that leaps from the thought of her in my mind. There can be no substitute for this feeling right now... Though love is not a factor as of yet it is honest quizzical intrigue of her actual knowledge... Like the way her mind links point A to point B is alien to me but just as if not more effective than the system that i use. Motivation comes back as though it was always there and i could work for years with a single day worth of inspiration. Yeah yeah call it sappy or corny... Hell call me candy corn with the scorn of sappy pines it fine i have no intention of stopped or slowing down with this new motivation... I plan on working hard for what i want and her affection is pretty high up there today. Is this insanity or vanity that fuels me? That the quandary i ask myself today... I may change but what is human nature but to form a sustained habit of change?