what to do, what to do...

[gazingatstars]

nothing really new but the fact that i cannot shake this freakin cold. damn sinus infection things. this weekend is almost over and i hate that. it always goes by too fast bc i work the entire thing and then i'm so pooped by the beginning of the week...not that i actually work all that much. eh, whatever. 'tis the tax return season so hopefully things will begin to move upward in my debt region. such is life.

so many things flow through my mind
whenever you enter my vision
smiles and an aura of glow surrounds me
no explanations allowed
are things really as they seem
will they continue to be so if...
or rather when...
jokes used as a shield against
all of the truths i choose to keep
a figment of my imagination is all this seems to be
all fading away with due time
so many mistakes no longer wanting to be repeated
a fixed pattern
fitting together like pieces to a puzzle
the kind that everyone else likes to put together
taking the pieces apart time after time
becoming more and more frustrating as time
goes on
waiting as patiently by
for what would be nice to happen
never making the first move
always wanting to anyway
the ball is in the court of another
who chooses to let the clock run
an infinite amount of time set
never knowing if it will ever come
close
to running out...