most of this was thought in a monotone way...apply emphasis where you see fit...
had a smashing time last night. i left before the craziness of course. it was nice to see everyone in one spot again...hangin, drinkin, smokin, playin...thats the way to do it. adam, i say you are in charge of partying everyone up all summer. and yes, that is a demand. and tell your sister she's awesome. because she is...both for me and yourself bc she took care of your ass. anywho, to all you dumbasses...you know who you are...just please try to start thinking before you act. i'm looking out for your safety, i just want you all to remain in one piece, preferably. to all you crazy kids, thanks for reminding me that i, too, still have some crazy left in me. i completely appreciate it. to you, damn you for showing up late. thats pretty much all i got. i lied--of course there's more but...no one wants to read about it. (hehe) to all who are hurting, i love you. in a platonic way of course. but i love nonetheless. not to sound mother theresa-esque, but this too shall pass...and something 100x better will come along. take it from me...i've been there, pretty recently too i might add. to all that i had the pleasure of conversing with...it was really nice. i never see you (you all know who you are) and i truly miss your company...absence does make the heart grow fonder...at least for me. to all that were not there (ahem, Michelle), i miss you biatches. i know we're all so crazy and there's always so much going on...but i still miss ya, and wanted you to know that i'm thinkin of ya. ok...that about covers that.
now to the update update.
everyone has been asking, "so whats up? whats new? whats going on in your life? cut the small talk" and i never really know what to say other than baby's good, i'm good, lifes ok, i'm gettin there. but its only half of it. my dad said the people renting the other side of the duplex are moving out in the fall...and that if i would like to i can move in...at a discounted price of course. this means that christmas will yet again consist of presents that are appropriate for a home or apartment. i really am going to try my damndest to work everything out so that i can...because this whole living at home with a baby thing is slowly waring at my sanity. especially since she's getting older and will be in a crib soon and i'm losing my indivuality...as in i'm not rachel anymore...just madison's mother. if that doesn't make sense...here's an example---say you're name is jen and you start dating a boy named jake. you slowly become less known as jen, and more known as jake's girlfriend; or your name is jocelyn and you have a sister named rachel. you're not referred to as jocelyn, just rachels sister. and the rambling will stop. my point is that it will truly be hard financially to handle it but sanity wise, i think it would be best for everyone. that and i'm so damn stubborn that i can't live here rent free and in one room for too long because it just isn't fair...i should be trying to do this on my own...with help...not do this with everyone. hard to explain it...hopefully you understand. so thats whats been exciting to me. i'm back to work which is great because i can get caught up in everyone else's drama...not the immediate friends drama thats always around somehow. and let me tell ya...work is full of drama right now. and i'm happy to have a place to go thats not family, not friends, just the awesome co-workers that allow me to escape into the crazy world that is friendly's.
and of course there is more but i have yet to know when to divulge...and where for that matter.
i love you (this one's for you robosimian)
hugs and kisses to all,
Rachel (AKA CRAZY MOMMA)
now to the update update.
everyone has been asking, "so whats up? whats new? whats going on in your life? cut the small talk" and i never really know what to say other than baby's good, i'm good, lifes ok, i'm gettin there. but its only half of it. my dad said the people renting the other side of the duplex are moving out in the fall...and that if i would like to i can move in...at a discounted price of course. this means that christmas will yet again consist of presents that are appropriate for a home or apartment. i really am going to try my damndest to work everything out so that i can...because this whole living at home with a baby thing is slowly waring at my sanity. especially since she's getting older and will be in a crib soon and i'm losing my indivuality...as in i'm not rachel anymore...just madison's mother. if that doesn't make sense...here's an example---say you're name is jen and you start dating a boy named jake. you slowly become less known as jen, and more known as jake's girlfriend; or your name is jocelyn and you have a sister named rachel. you're not referred to as jocelyn, just rachels sister. and the rambling will stop. my point is that it will truly be hard financially to handle it but sanity wise, i think it would be best for everyone. that and i'm so damn stubborn that i can't live here rent free and in one room for too long because it just isn't fair...i should be trying to do this on my own...with help...not do this with everyone. hard to explain it...hopefully you understand. so thats whats been exciting to me. i'm back to work which is great because i can get caught up in everyone else's drama...not the immediate friends drama thats always around somehow. and let me tell ya...work is full of drama right now. and i'm happy to have a place to go thats not family, not friends, just the awesome co-workers that allow me to escape into the crazy world that is friendly's.
and of course there is more but i have yet to know when to divulge...and where for that matter.
i love you (this one's for you robosimian)
hugs and kisses to all,
Rachel (AKA CRAZY MOMMA)