for the love of GOD
I invite myself to try to be a good friend to people and end up getting other people mad. I invite myself to get stuck in the middle of other peoples business. I invite my self to talk shit about one friend to make the other friend feel better. I end up getting the other person mad. I cant make everyone happy. thats all I fuckin do, work on trying to make everyone else happy, giving them fucking friendly advice to make them feel better, i give them advice that i dont even use on myself. I dont mind it at all, I want people to feel comfortable coming to me for support when they need it. But did it ever occur to anyone that i cant even fucken make myself happy? I am not asking anyone for help, someone who gives support to other people doesnt need it from someone else, i already know what id hear from friends. All i do is fucken put every one else first. i like the idea of helping all my friends from their problems and sadness but im always going to fuck up somewhere and get someone else upset.
Im also pissed because i want to go to california. concidently, my grandma, aunt and uncle are going next month but i think its too random for me to just go. i need to fucken get out of this state. im sick of everything here. I want out
Im also pissed because i want to go to california. concidently, my grandma, aunt and uncle are going next month but i think its too random for me to just go. i need to fucken get out of this state. im sick of everything here. I want out