Ramblings Mostly For My Own Amusment
Ok ok I admit that I suck at this updating thing but really I'm done doing things for anyone's benefit but my own when it comes to these things. Actually I haven't done much in the way of writing at all which is a shame because now I actually have time for such things and I always found it fun. If one of my goals in life is to write a book I might want to get going on that idea so that maybe by the time I'm forty I'll be able to write something good. The good thing about being home for the holidays is that I don't have work or Mattie to distract me from the alone time I used to cherish to read or write or waste countless amounts of time on the internet or my new big time waster spider solitaire. Plus I now have time to try to either reconnect with the friends I didn't mean to neglect or try to keep better in touch with the ones I was doing ok with. I need to stop forgetting about the rest of my social life when the love of my life is around. He's cool but so are the other people I'm friends with. Speaking of Mattie if he spent half the time today sending back the email response he owes me that he did heckling on facebook I wouldn't be so annoyed. We just had this entire conversation about how I liked the email question thing we had going to learn things about each other (because we both suck at the phone) and he still hasn't managed to send an email back yet. Sometimes I wonder if the things I say just hit a wall between the ear and the brain and just bounce back out of his head. I love him so much but sometimes it gets frustrating. I'm trying to find a job to fill my time at home and earn some money to pay off my stupid $1200 in car repairs. That process is not going so well either but it just makes me that much more greatful for working that extra weekend at camp. At least I still have some money coming my way. Christmas presents are still going to be interesting this year. I'll figure it out. I'm really enjoying my time at home though. I'm getting a chance to relax and not have to deal with camp drama. It's snowing here which is frickin fantastic. God I missed snow. Of course that also meant that I didn't go anywhere today which of course meant I did not get a whole lot done on the to do list I made. Oh well. I did start cleaning the house today. My mothers paying me to clean the house. I am ok with this. It means that she doesn't have to hire someone and I get much needed money. Yay! I miss Mattie a lot. He's been in my dreams four nights in a row now which is wierd for me. I usually don't have that kind of consistency. It's nice though to get away for awhile. You really start to realize and value what you have. It's amazing how lucky I am to have found him. He's the reason why I have no regrets in my life. If anything had been different I wouldn't have met him. I'm sure this sounds silly and cliche but it's really true. Alright time to add to my to do list and start thinking about sleeping although that probably won't happen for at least another hour. I am so not tired right now.