... and up we go.
i feel like i'm goin to tempt fate with this post but things have certainly picked up since the last couple of posts. things seem to have settled. nothing is out of the woods but i am finding myself scared shitless, paranoid, happy and content all at the same time.
i feel that as soon as there is a full stop on the topic everything will be sweet but this is something i have to wait for. this is something that if i push, won't come any quicker. at the moment i'm simply really happy with the time i spend with nicole. every second i'm not at work i want to be around her which is a great feeling. i'm being very cautious not to overwhealm too much but i feel like i have fallen for her again and harder than ever before. this time i will not make past mistakes and guess or doubt whats goin on. i'm wearing my heart on my sleeve and saying exactly what i feel. at least this way if it all goes pearshaped i've been honest to myself. i've worked my arse off to get back to this point but at the moment it all seems worth it.
fri night was simple but hella-fun. i surprised nicole by taking her down to torquay for the night. we did all the lame things like walk along the beach just after dusk and talk in the moonlight (awwwww). we talked a lot and just relaxed and enjoyed each others company. after feeling stressed the last two weeks i could think of no nicer way to spend a night, and no other person i'd want to spend it with (sorry mandy).
the only problem i had was i had to come back and work at 1500. i can think of nowhere i hate being more than here today concering i left nicoles house both days.
oh well. scared, happy and paranoid. makes for a potentially interesting next week.
til then i'll continue being gooey and lame.
i feel that as soon as there is a full stop on the topic everything will be sweet but this is something i have to wait for. this is something that if i push, won't come any quicker. at the moment i'm simply really happy with the time i spend with nicole. every second i'm not at work i want to be around her which is a great feeling. i'm being very cautious not to overwhealm too much but i feel like i have fallen for her again and harder than ever before. this time i will not make past mistakes and guess or doubt whats goin on. i'm wearing my heart on my sleeve and saying exactly what i feel. at least this way if it all goes pearshaped i've been honest to myself. i've worked my arse off to get back to this point but at the moment it all seems worth it.
fri night was simple but hella-fun. i surprised nicole by taking her down to torquay for the night. we did all the lame things like walk along the beach just after dusk and talk in the moonlight (awwwww). we talked a lot and just relaxed and enjoyed each others company. after feeling stressed the last two weeks i could think of no nicer way to spend a night, and no other person i'd want to spend it with (sorry mandy).
the only problem i had was i had to come back and work at 1500. i can think of nowhere i hate being more than here today concering i left nicoles house both days.
oh well. scared, happy and paranoid. makes for a potentially interesting next week.
til then i'll continue being gooey and lame.