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My life as we speak is in the stage of "deperateness"........I feel sad and lonely because I don't have a man, I really want one sooooo BAD!! Why hasn't it happen for me yet? I don't get why I haven't been approached by a guy (IN PERSON). I just think that having a man will forfill my life dramactically because I can smile everyday knowing that this man CARES for me and LOVES me for who I am........I would also cry if I have a boyfriend (tears of joy)...........I gotta be honest a lot of people think I'm a wierd person, and I can totally understand why......I just do wierd ass things that NO ONE has ever seen a person doing, well the truth is that's who I am.......if no one likes it then screw you, I'm not changing for you! I will someday find that someone who will LOVE the "KHOA" the wierd khoa! I consider myself a unique person who expresses his feelings to EVERYONE.........because I make EVERYONE feel like they are special so I share things with them.
Yea, this might sound lame but I do cry everynight feeling lonely inside because I don't have the "MAN" to comfort me and I don't have that special someone to be by my side no matter what happens. I also cry becuase a lot of people at Hamilton "DISLIKES" me for some apparent reason.........a lot thinks I'm this loser who hits on straight people all the time, well I just want to say I have developed throughout my past mistakes taking with me GOOD examples of what NOT to do in life, espically out of High School because I can freakin get JUMPED! I have noticed a lot of improvement in how I expose myself to people espically straight men. I have learned to respect their privacy and leave them be. I am considering to leave Hamilton next year because of all the PAIN many has done towards myself. MANY wouldn't like to be in my position...........then why do it to me? I really had enough and should depart........Hamilton has ONLY brought me JOY on STAGE and with my CLOSE friends, but overall has scard me with DEEP emotional pains of sorrow!
Many do not know my culteral background, my life outside of school, nor my complete life at school to judge me as a "WEIRD" person. I am a person I have the right to speak like any other person, it seems like EVERY single word that comes out of my mouth is USED as a NEGATIVE term for me. I can tell you I am the NICEST GAY person at Hamilton, you guys just have to get to know be better and GIVE me a chance to show who I am and NOT take everything I say and LAUGH at it, I call that IMMATURE and DISREPECTFUL. If you guys DONT want to get to know me then PLEASE LEAVE ME BE.......don't make fun of me, don't talk to me......just pretend I'm not there! I prefer that then talking about me in front of my face, laughing at me, or having me for YOUR entertainment. I just hope things will be better in college, then maybe I can encounter a man that will like me for who I am.
Yea, this might sound lame but I do cry everynight feeling lonely inside because I don't have the "MAN" to comfort me and I don't have that special someone to be by my side no matter what happens. I also cry becuase a lot of people at Hamilton "DISLIKES" me for some apparent reason.........a lot thinks I'm this loser who hits on straight people all the time, well I just want to say I have developed throughout my past mistakes taking with me GOOD examples of what NOT to do in life, espically out of High School because I can freakin get JUMPED! I have noticed a lot of improvement in how I expose myself to people espically straight men. I have learned to respect their privacy and leave them be. I am considering to leave Hamilton next year because of all the PAIN many has done towards myself. MANY wouldn't like to be in my position...........then why do it to me? I really had enough and should depart........Hamilton has ONLY brought me JOY on STAGE and with my CLOSE friends, but overall has scard me with DEEP emotional pains of sorrow!
Many do not know my culteral background, my life outside of school, nor my complete life at school to judge me as a "WEIRD" person. I am a person I have the right to speak like any other person, it seems like EVERY single word that comes out of my mouth is USED as a NEGATIVE term for me. I can tell you I am the NICEST GAY person at Hamilton, you guys just have to get to know be better and GIVE me a chance to show who I am and NOT take everything I say and LAUGH at it, I call that IMMATURE and DISREPECTFUL. If you guys DONT want to get to know me then PLEASE LEAVE ME BE.......don't make fun of me, don't talk to me......just pretend I'm not there! I prefer that then talking about me in front of my face, laughing at me, or having me for YOUR entertainment. I just hope things will be better in college, then maybe I can encounter a man that will like me for who I am.