Goodbye for now....

[gaymoportard]

Um Friday I had another going away party but this time it was just my friends and myself. Friends include: Aaron, Alex, Kelly, and Kit. I went to pick up Kelly at about 8:30, on the way back I called Kit, she came over about an hour or so later. Aaron showed up at 10:30ish. Alex trailed in at about 12:00ish cause he had to close at work. And so the fun began...we all started drinking, EXCEPT KELLY :). Well everyone gets pretty shitfaced and it seemed like I was the only one sober enough to still have some sense, other than KELLY. Kit got pretty wasted and made out with Aaron, weird cause i thought she is gay?. Kit and I had a long conversation about some things, well i say conversation...I WAS DOING MOST OF THE TALKING. When i would ask if she wanted to talk about anything in particular, "No.", "I still love you.", and "I don't want to stop being friends." were the ONLY responses i received. I told her that I'm with someone else, that i don't want to stop being friends but if it makes it easier for her 2 move on I'll gladly do it. We didn't go to bed until about 4:30 am, only to wake up at about 7:30 am. Everyone left but me and kelly hung out and talked about the night b4's events. Took kelly home, came home, took VERY long bath, only to get ready for another night's adventure. Went to a baby shower for my cousin Todd and his g/f of seven years at about 2:30. All the girls on the Hoedebeck side of my family, Allison, Crystal, and Savannah all took me to Studio Movie Grill. We watched "The Pacifier" and ate some kick ass food! The movie was so good! Left with Savannah after some teary good-byes with my family. I didn't feel good at all so we cancelled on going to the Southern Junction. Ate a bowl of ice cream w/ Savannah, Allison, and Micah. Came home, immediately went to bed. Woke up at 6:50 am, took a bath, went to v.v. to meet Alex for breakfast. We had breakfast at IHOP and then went to wash our much needed cleaning vehicles. Then on to Wal-Mart so Alex could buy a game...met up with Kelly while we were there. Alex had to work 12-5 today but maybe i'll see him later 2day or 2morrow. Kelly is here now, helping to correct me on any spelling errors i make...i need ALL the help i can get mind u. Loads of fun 2night i hope...hanging out with my dad mostly. LOL...I'm hoping he'll stay up late enough to watch the L word with me! OK, FOR THE AWESOME NEWS...i sent Stephanie a package to cheer her up, its contents included: 2 of my fav. shirts (my air force shirt and my sulpher springs soccer shirt) both were sprayed with my perfume, 2 bears, 2 cards, and my class ring. She got home yesterday and got it all! She wrote me and told me that she is wearing the ring around her neck and that she hopefully will get to call me 2day. Aww...i love her so much. So amazing, words can't describe how happy she makes me, if i didn't feel so strongly 4 her I wouldn't have sent her my ring. But yea anyways...this will be my last post for awhile, as i leave on tuesday but i have to be at the hotel 2morrow night. So i wish everyone the best and i love you all so much. PLEASE WRITE ME, if u want to...call my dad next sunday and he should have my address sometime, 972-636-9311.

"I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly, though it's not easy to tell you goodbye. I've gotta make a wish, take a chance, make a change, and breakaway." -Kelly Clarkson "Breakaway"