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I'm feeling an assload of mixed emotions right now. part of me is really upset and part of me is happy. Part of me feels like I've just been broken up with all over again while another part feels like this is the new beginning that I've been waiting for. I just don't understand. I don't understand how things like this happen. Why can't I just be feeling one emotion?? Be angry or glad but being both is too draining.Thinking of all the happy memories is what makes me happy yet sad. Thinking of the bad moments and memories makes me angry but reminds me of why things didn't work out. I want to write a letter explaining excatly how I feel both good and bad but I don't know what I would do with it. I would never send it out. I want people to know when they hurt me but sometimes the things that I have to say are too hurtful and I would never want people to say those kinds of things to me. I just don't know what to do. Good lord. I need a vacation of some sort, that would be lovely. I would love to just entirely focus on my school work but i really don't care about it because this semesters topics just do not interest me at all. I shouldn't spend the money, but that trip to Chicago with Phi alpha theta is sounding really good right now. Plus I'll get to know my cohorts better. we'll see. I'm really considering it.
womp womp
womp womp